Nonchalant Girl

A Night at the Opera

2012-01-23T10:09:00.002-06:00

Okay, actually, it was an afternoon at the opera.

But, it was at the Metropolitan Opera. Okay, but not in New York. At a movie theater.

Did you know they did this? You can watch live broadcasts of the Met Opera.

Brian took me to one of our local movie theaters this weekend to watch The Enchanted Island, a newly commissioned Baroque pastiche (fun word, eh?).

Basically, it's in English, with storylines taken from some Shakespeare plays, with music taken from a variety of operas (Handel, Vivaldi, and some lesser-known composers).

It was a lot of fun, and exceptionally well done (well, it is the Met, eh?), and it featured Placido Domingo in the role of Neptune (my mom LOVES him).

We can still say that opera's not really our thing, but that's okay, we can still appreciate it. ^_^

Although, I do have to say, some of the music was a little catchy.

My favorite was used in this trailer for the opera:

It was a fun and different thing to do, although, I must say, I think we were the youngest in the theater by like 40 years. *LOL* (Okay, maybe not, as there was a younger gay couple next to us, but, close enough!)

Obsessed with Downton Abbey

2012-01-17T09:54:00.000-06:00

The best show you're not watching?

I came across Downton Abbey shortly after season 1 had begun. Honestly, I can't remember who told me about it, or maybe I had just seen previews for it on PBS. Either way, from the first episode of season 1, I was hooked!

As you can tell, it's a period drama, set in England (Edwardian times). I've heard it's very similar to Upstairs/Downstairs, in that it not only follows the life of the noble and genteel, but also the lives of the servants. (I have never seen Upstairs/Downstairs, but apparently it was very popular in the 70s? and there was also a remake recently.)

The drama, the costumes, the language, the romance, the twists and turns, I love it all.

I even got Brian hooked on it! *LOL* It really is THAT good. Now, some naysayers will tell you that season 2 (already aired in the UK, but currently airing in the US on PBS), which I've seen (thank you, Interwebs), is not good at all. But, I don't think that's it. I just think that season 1 was THAT good that season 2 does have a harder job in front of itself. I still enjoy the series greatly, and can't wait for season 3!!

If you haven't watched it, you should, EVEN if you don't think it would interest you at all. Give it a whirl. I think you may be surprised.

And yes, I am a little obsessed with it. I've read/watched interviews, articles, and even watched a well-done UK Parody of it (which was so funny!). So, I recommend. Go watch, go watch! (If you have Netflix, season 1 is on there.)

Teaser Tuesday: The Hum and The Shiver

2012-01-10T11:11:00.001-06:00

Teaser Tuesdays is a weekly bookish meme, hosted by MizB of Should Be Reading. Anyone can play along! Just do the following:

• Grab your current read
• Open to a random page
• Share two (2) “teaser” sentences from somewhere on that page
• BE CAREFUL NOT TO INCLUDE SPOILERS! (make sure that what you share doesn’t give too much away! You don’t want to ruin the book for others!)
• Share the title & author, too, so that other TT participants can add the book to their TBR Lists if they like your teasers!

Teaser:

I can’t deal with the haint yet, Bronwyn thought fearfully.She felt her immobility more than ever, and winced with each crushing heartbeat;for an instant she thought she might really be having a coronary, her body tooweak to survive this level of terror.

-- Page 90, The Hum and The Shiver by Alex Bledsoe

Random New Things

2012-01-08T13:42:00.001-06:00

The new year brings the new little things we got for Christmas, and those after-Christmas sales where we spend the gift cards we received.

So, I wanted to share a few things with you, somewhat random, but hey, that's how things sometimes go. ^_^

First off, we got a new little camera! We had a little point-and-shoot camera on our list, because, while I love my camera, sometimes it's so bulky to carry around. We wanted something small and portable. So, we put a little Canon Powershot on our wish list, and Brian's dad and stepmom got it for us. I had not idea it was so small! It's smaller (a little thicker, though), than my iPhone!

Then, not necessarily something we got as a gift, nor with gift cards, but part of my word HEALTHY for the year, is ... a scale. Gasp! I know. How did we not have one? Well, denial isn't just a river in Egypt, is it? I would just get weighed at my annual physical and let it be. But, if I really AM serious about losing weight (and Brian too), then this is a good gauge. (AND, I am happy to report that, while I think I might have lost a little weight toward the end of last summer, but maybe gained some back during the holidays, I weigh exactly the same as I did when I went to the doctor almost a year ago. SO, that's a decent step, right? Oh, it's still a yucky number, but at least I know where I stand. ^_^)

And, to end on a fun note, I got some Barnes and Noble gift cards and went shopping online. I've been wanting small little notepads to carry in my purse, because sometimes I get ideas, or thoughts, or even things I want to remember, like when I see on FB, for instance, that someone's struggling and I say I'll send thoughts and prayers their way, but sometimes forget, or forget who it was, so ... that way, I have a handy little place to jot those thoughts down quickly. So, I found these little notepads on clearance. They are notepads that resemble dance cards, like those that might have been used in Austen's balls. The inside cover, as you see, has the actual dance card part, but the rest is just a blank little notepad. (Click on the pic to take you to where you can view the larger and more clear image -- it looks so blurry and yucky here! Ugh!) Such a cute, cute idea. And on clearance, to boot! Score! Shall we dance? ^_^

How about you? What fun gifts did you get this past Christmas, or what did you buy yourself with gift money/cards?

To a Healthy Year

2012-01-04T14:26:00.001-06:00

A lot of people in the digiscrap community that I know, like to go with a word that they want the new year to be defined with. It's a way to make a resolution, per se, without being too pinned down. Oh, sure, they say the way to completing a goal is to write it down and to be specific about how that's accomplished, but there's nothing wrong with just starting out by putting that word out into the universe.

I think all of the things I mentioned last year are things I do want to continue working on, but they will be put into the word I have decided to use for me, for 2012.

And that word is Healthy.

I know, I know, it sounds like the obligatory "I'm gonna eat better" statement, but, to me it's more than that. I was thinking of all the things I want to accomplish this year, and it frankly got a little overwhelming. So many things to do! Was I crazy about wanting to do them? AND, I KNEW there was no way I would complete them all.

But then I started thinking, what does healthy really mean.

MW has it as:
1: enjoying health and vigor of body, mind, or spirit : well
2: evincing health
3: conducive to health
4 a : prosperous, flourishing
b : not small or feeble : considerable

Synonyms (in relation to different meanings):

able-bodied, bouncing, fit, hale, hearty, robust, sound, well, well-conditioned, whole, wholesome
biggish, good, goodly, handsome, healthy, largish, major, respectable, significant, sizable (or sizeable), substantial, substantive, tidy
booming, boomy, flourishing, golden, halcyon, healthy, lush, palmy, prospering, roaring, successful, thriving

I think the first definition fits best, as I do want to have a healthy body, a healthy mind/heart, and a healthy spirit. But the others fit as well. I want to continue to flourish as a person, becoming the best I can be. Oh, I won't make it THIS year, but I can move forward. Part of having a calm, healthy spirit is to make sure my surroundings support this, and I will continue to declutter my home (and computer files! yeesh!). And also continue studying materials that will help.

And I'm sure the year will bring some unexpected things. One thing I know for sure, and which I am excited about, is that ...

Brian's going back to school! Officially! He registered and paid for his classes yesterday. Yay!! Right now he's taking a few of the core classes he will need for his new degree (which he didn't need with his old one) at a community college. He's starting out with two, but I don't think he needs that many more, and then he can transfer to a local university which carries the degree he wants. SO, can you send good vibes and prayers his way. Sometimes he get so discouraged with school (partly because I think he feels he's too old to be back in school and/or he wonders if it's worth it), but he's one of the smartest people I know, and I KNOW he can do this.

So, I will try to keep you updated on my Healthy journey this year, especially where my physical aspect is concerned (I do need to lose weight), as I've learned a lot over the last 18 months that would probably surprise you to learn about nutrition and the like. (And, maybe I can show off some healthy, tasty recipes.) We'll see.

To a great 2012!

Christmas and a Fortunate Year

2011-12-31T08:45:00.000-06:00

Okay, so I know I'm a little late posting about Christmas, seeing as it's New Year's Eve and all, but, well, that's how it goes. I also know it's been almost a month since I blogged. *LOL*

Anywho, Christmas was great! I have mentioned several times that this year has been a good one for us, and it has. We were able to give a little more to our families this year. It's somewhat nice to not have to be so overly creative in staying within such a strict budget to find something nice for family members. Although, I will say, handmade gifts are probably the ones that are always best received. Unfortunately, I just did not have the time this year. But, that's okay.

The highlight of this Christmas is probably Christmas Eve. My siblings and I went in together and bought our parents a new TV, bringing them out of the CRT age and into the flat screen (and larger, of course). However, we had to get my mom out of the house to get the TV set up (my father can hardly see, so he's not much of a problem). So, many of us arrived early with excuses of rearranging the living room because we were going to be watching a movie that night (which we WERE). But then, how to get mom out of the kitchen and away for about 45 minutes? Thankfully, my niece had purchased the wrong thing for the gift exchange, and had to go somewhere, and got my mother to finally go with her.

Boy, was my mom surprised when she came home! But, the funniest part was that she only first noticed that we had rearranged the living area. It took her a few minutes to realize they had a new TV! (And, sadly, my father, who had been "watching" said TV for the last half hour hadn't realized either -- told you his sight was bad.) And then she started crying! Awww!! She thought it was the sweetest thing, gave us all hugs and then got fake mad at our tricksy ways! It was too funny!

We ended up watching The Polar Express, which she enjoyed.

Christmas Day was a little nerve wracking, as I had to sing a solo in church that day. Ugh! Singing solos makes me so nervous! I did okay, but not my best. Every time that happens, I think I should get a voice teacher. Well, we'll see.

But, later that day we went to Brian's mom's house and enjoyed time with his family.

All around we got some nice gifts, especially a new P&S camera from Brian's dad and stepmom. We wanted a little P&S to be able to carry around and not worry about MY camera. and boy, is it small! I think it's smaller than my iPhone! It's so cute. (I think this year I would like to start saving to buy a DSLR next year. We'll see.) And Brian splurged on me and got me some perfume that I've always wanted, J'Adore. It smells so nice! MMm.....

It really was a great Christmas.

And a great year. A blessed year. A fortunate year.

Which brings me to the shorter second half of this post. A you know, ever year we get ornaments to commemorate something momentous, interesting, big that has happened to use during the year. Last year, we got a Leica camera glass ornament. Since I had participated in Project365 that year, I thought it was only fitting.

This year, it too me awhile to think about what happened. Yes, we had a lot of great things happen this year, but how do you put that all into an ornament. We were truly blessed. And then, one day, in Hobby Lobby, I saw it -- a fortune cookie ornament. It was perfect!

And so, I share with you the scrapbook layout I did about this ornament.

I know I've gone on a lot about how great a year we've had. And I know that others haven't been as fortunate. I know that one day we might not have as much again, which is why I do things like this, so one year, when perhaps it might be hard, I can look back on this year, and remember.

So, here's to another great year! And, in the next few days I will post my "resolutions" per se, or really, things I want to accomplish in the new year.

Have a great New Year's Eve and Day!

Published Scrapbook Layouts

2011-12-01T09:17:00.001-06:00

So, while I didn't officially complete NaBloPomo, I think I did pretty well. I had thought about doing it for December, but didn't think I should, seeing as the month is so busy. But, I shall try to post more.

Remember when I mentioned I was getting some scrapbook layouts published? Well, it has finally come out!

You can check out this month's issue of GingerScrapsStreet Magazine, or go directly to the pages that contain my layouts here (Winter), here (titles), or here (Christmas).

I think it's pretty neat! ^_^

The New American Dream

2011-11-30T19:49:00.001-06:00

Recently I learned that someone I know is going to be looking at houses in the next few weeks. I won't go into all the details of this person, but I will say that, in my opinion, it is SUCH a bad idea! I know there's NO way they can have their finances in order to do such a thing, and so my mind wonders why they're even doing this!

But, buying a house IS "The American Dream" isn't it?

Over the last few years, I've watched/listened to enough Dave Ramsay and Suze Orman to know the best path to being financially fit.

Suze has even touted a revolution to bring about the NEW American Dream. Which is actually quite simple. It's basically, to stand in your financial truth—THAT should be the new American dream. It means to live in a home which you can afford (be it apartment, or rental home, or purchasing a home). To live a LIFE that you can afford, and not to be caught up with having everything. She says to get as much pleasure from saving, as from spending. Dave Ramsay is more about saving, saving, saving now, but I think it's about the same thing.

They both suggest having large emergency funds. They both suggest putting large sums of money down on a house you can actually afford (Dave suggests cash, but if you can't, then only going for a 15-year mortgage, and if you can't pay for that, then you need to get a less expensive house). They also say to avoid credit card debt. Is this so hard to understand? Yet people all over our country (and out) have problems with this.

I will admit, that when I heard the news about this person I knew, part of me was jealous at first. I would love to own a home, and we were so close at one point. But, then I look around me, and I smile. I like where we live. We have some nice things. It's comfortable. It's home. But more importantly, we're working toward a financial security, so that we don't have to worry, as many people do, when something goes awry (car repairs, or unexpected medical expenses). We don't live paycheck to paycheck, and we are blessed to say that.

It's their life to live as they want, it just breaks my heart to see people I know and care about making ginormous, potentially bad decisions that could impact them for years to come, when just some simple words of advice, taken and heeded, could make them happier and more secure.

It took our parents YEARS to build up the lives and families that we were born into. We cannot expect us to have it all right away. And yet, many young people do. However, I look at my parents now. Aged. Infirm. And with very little savings. That is not where I want to be at that age. Lesson learned. I hope.

I'm working toward my new American dream. How about you?

Korean BBQ

2011-11-29T10:28:00.001-06:00

Ever had Korean BBQ? How about Korean BBQ from a food truck? Oh, I know. That image conjures up rundown food trucks with spotty paint jobs and possibly questionable food-preparation practices.

But, apparently, the food truck has seen a resurgence in the last few years, and they've gone all fancy and high tech!

A few months ago, my company launched their Christmas Book, and I was able to attend the launch party, where one of the things available was Korean BBQ from ssahm BBQ.

See what I mean about a high-tech food truck? (Taken from their site.)

I admit, I've never had Korean BBQ before, especially from a food truck, but I had heard good things, and so, I had a taco and kimchee fries that day. OMG! The kimchee fries! Sooooo good!

This is a pic from their site of the tacos.

Sadly, I couldn't find a pic on their site of the fries, but, just imagine all the stuff on the tortillas, slathered over perfectly cooked fries.

It took me awhile to remember their name, and I found them on FB last night. SOoo wanting to get some more! They occasionally do a dinner stop somewhat near my work, so, maybe one evening .....

Drool..........................

Do YOU Pinterest?

2011-11-28T21:02:00.001-06:00

I think of Pinterest as a graphical representation of my virtual bookmarks.

According to Pinterest:

Pinterest is a virtual pinboard. Pinterest allows you to organize and share all the beautiful things you find on the web. You can browse pinboards created by other people to discover new things and get inspiration from people who share your interests.

People use pinboards to plan their weddings, decorate their homes, and share their favorite recipes.

I like that instead of bookmarking a site, and only having a sometimes badly named link as my only reference, now I can see the lovely little image of whatever it is that inspired me -- craft, recipe, decor, etc.

Some claim it's a time waster. I don't know. No more a time waster than anything else online! *LOL* Also, I think it can be helpful when thinking about, say, what your decorator style is. Maybe you don't know, but it you start pinning everything you like on one board, then you'll eventually get to see a pattern.

So, if you want to,

And, if you need an invite, let me know! ^_^

My Cats Have Heating Pads

2011-11-27T21:53:00.001-06:00

Yep, that's right. My cats each have their own heating pad.

And, yes, that mean's they're spoiled. ^_^

But, truthfully, during the winter we keep our home a little on the cool side (artificial heat is icky) and so, if we're cold, we can just put on more clothes. Sadly, the cats can only do so much. And, after many times taking over one of our heating pads (whether for our feet, or our backs, or sore muscles), we decided to get them their own. But, we had to get a heating pad specifically made for pets.

Sound silly? It's not, actually. Heating pads made for humans run too hot for animals, and can actually cause them to become overheated and dehydrated. So, there are heating pads out there for animals that run a lower voltage, safe, continuous heat that keeps them just warm enough.

And, as soon as we break those out, the cats don't leave those heated little ovals of warmth.

And so, that's where the cats are right now. On each wingback chair, we have their blankets and a heating pad. And each cat is curled up on one right now. They're so cute!

And hey, if our pets aren't meant to be spoiled, then who/what CAN we spoil? ^_^

Muppets Movie

2011-11-26T22:13:00.001-06:00

Brian and I went to see the new Muppets movie. It was cute. I felt the first part dragged a little, but when they got into the "show" part, it was a lot of fun. Funny, too, in parts. But some parts were just really, really cheesy, and I really felt they could have gone a little smarter with it. It kind of reminds me of Enchanted, in that Disney is totally poking fun at themselves, but also brings in little homages to other Disney films. And, I have to say, the songs were really good in that one! (I sing along to them on occasion in the car.) But, the Muppets songs were ... not as memorable. Mostly.

The original show was on just shortly after I was born, but I do remember watching many in reruns. It was cute and funny, then. There were some characters in this movie that I don't even remember though!

All in all, it was nice to get out and have some fun. Because Brian had off on Friday, and I got off early on Friday, all chores and whatnot were done by Friday, so we were able to enjoy Saturday completely for ourselves.

Thankfully, it seems I am on the mend, which is nice -- means this never turned into a full-blown whatever. And, the cough I had developing has mostly subsided. (I think it's because I'm not draining as much. I know, TMI. Sorry. ^_^)

Thanks for the well wishes!

Fighting Off the Germs

2011-11-25T14:57:00.001-06:00

So, a few weeks back I posted that I had been feeling unwell. Well, I think that compromised my immune system somewhat -- I was doing so well! But, then Brian went and caught a cold, and then, last Sunday, one of the kids I teach coughed on my hand not 2 feet from my face. Ugh! I quickly bathed my hands in antibacterial cleanser, but I think the damage was done. Thankfully, it has yet to develop into a full-blown whatever, but my throat was a little sore a few days ago, and my sinuses do hurt, and I've just felt blah.

But, I think my body is still trying to fight. I've been doing all that I should -- Neti pot, Vit. D, teas, etc. I just need to get better. I dislike feeling sick! :(

Giving Thanks

2011-11-24T10:50:00.001-06:00

Happy Thanksgiving!

Even though the year isn't over yet, I have to say that Brian and I have had a blessed year, and we have a lot to be thankful for.

Not only did Brian get promoted to a position he's been wanting for awhile, which he's great at, and which he knows he wants to do for the rest of his career (well, at least for now), but then I got a fabulous job at a wonderful company where I am truly appreciated for my talents and abilities!

We moved out of our old apartment where we had many issues, to an awesome new place where we've been able to make it a lovely new home. Our jobs have afforded us the ability to get a few new things (like a couch) to truly feel like we are living a nice life.

We have our health, which we're striving to improve on. We also have our wonderful cats that bring us so much joy. And even though Yanni got really sick early on in the year, he was able to recover and be back to his old self (which is a silly kitty who makes us laugh). Also, we have our wonderful family. And even though my dad's had a few 'bouts of severe illness, he's still hanging on.

We still have about a month left in the year, and one never knows what life can bring, but we are so thankful for the life that we have, for the blessings the Lord has bestowed upon us, even though we sometimes aren't as good at expressing that gratitude.

Sometimes I get very overwhelmed thinking of all the nice things we have in our life when there are so many people out there that are suffering in one way or another (loss of jobs; sickness; harsh life conditions; etc.). We are truly, truly blessed.

May all of you have a blessed and happy Thanksgiving!

Trendy Leopard

2011-11-23T17:22:00.001-06:00

One of the perks of working for a very nice, large retail company? I get some nice discounts.

Like today, we had a storewide 40% off sale, and then, I get my 30% discount on top of that.

I got some gifts, but I got myself something as well, because I've had my eye on these for awhile:

Leopard-print anything is all the rage this fall, and I love thong slippers, so these are the perfect combo! Even at home, my feet can be trendy! ^_^

Oops!

2011-11-22T09:37:00.001-06:00

So, apparently, not being a consistent blogger has affected my NaBloPoMoing! Oops!

Sorry! I missed another day of blogging. In my ~~defense~~, haha, excuse, whatever, last night Brian and I were talking "grownup" stuff—benefits. Since I'm officially an employee, I can now get benefits. But I have to decide ASAP, or I can't enroll until next summer (we're retail, so our books fiscal year ends during the summer). Brian, though, has end-of-the-year enrollment.

So, we went through all that stuff, and boy is it a life sucker! Ugh! Sometimes, being a grownup really sucks! Blech!

That's my story, and I'm stickin' to it!

The Birthday

2011-11-20T08:32:00.001-06:00

Okay, so I was totally going to cheat and backdate my entry, seeing as I officially missed blogging on yesterday, Nov. 19. But, I totally have a good excuse: it was my birthday!!

Yesterday I turned 36! I am the same age my mother was when she had me. Almost to the day—her birthday is exactly one week before mine. It seems odd to me. She had 4 children at this point. I have none. But, then, her life is very different from mine, so.... And, I know many women having children later in life, so I don't think about it too much. (Okay, maybe more than lately, as I told my husband that if we decide to have children, I will not go past 40.)

Anyway, on Friday morning, my coworkers surprised me with a little breakfast brunch. (And, I have to say, even though they like to surprise others as well, and I had at first thought they would do it for me, I had only told my supervisor the date shortly after I started 6 months ago—I figured they had forgotten. But no, they're sneaky! *LOL* My super also got me some lovely tulips.

Then, Friday night we had people over—especially some that I haven't seen in YEARS! It was so good to catch up with OLD, old friends, some older friends, and some friends we have just known a few months, so that was nice. It mad me realize that I want to make more of an effort to catch up with old friends and maintain some of those friendships. I mean, some of these people it was as if we had just seen each other last week, well, except for the fact that some are now married and have kids, but .... ^_^ I think it gets a little harder to make friends as you get older, because you're having to fit into the full life of someone else. Whereas, friendships of old were usually made when single, or when one had less responsibilities and therefore had more time to cultivate those friendships. So, that's one of my goals for the coming year.

OH! Which reminds me, this is a a digression, so bear with me. Remember last year, when I mentioned that I was going to start saving for my Masquerade Ball? Well, I am happy to report that I am on my way! For now I only have a few hundred dollars saved, but ... this next year I hope to put in a little more each month than I have been. In 4 years I should be able to have a fab party!!!

Now, back to my birthday. Poor Brian is sick with either a cold, or really bad allergies. He has been trying so hard to make my day a special one. So, we slept in. (Okay, really, he slept in.) Then we went to brunch at Denny's (yes, IHOP is better, but I like the sausage at Denny's better), then to get groceries (sadly, yes, this still needs to be done), then home to relax, watch some TV and just hang out. Then, later we went to dinner at MasterGrill. It's one of those Brazilian Churrascarias (where they bring meat out on the skewers which they cooked on). So delish! The sirloin last night was excellent. And I always wait for the lamb. It's the first place I ever tried lamb with mint jelly (such a strange-sounding combination, but so tasty!). And, they also have this pineapple coated in brown sugar, which is out of this world! YUM! The nice thing about this place, is that it isn't as pricey as some other similar places around here, but it's still good.

And, for last, the gifts. From my friends, the most memorable was a buckram fascinator form so I can make my own fascinator (so excited), and from Brian, a pair of white gold earrings with a gemstone in them, and a special table lamp made to help with lighting when taking still-life pictures (and also some of my crafty items, like cards and things). I know, sounds weird, but I've wanted something like that for awhile so I could have better indoor lighting!

So, that was that. Kind of a slow, lazy birthDAY. And It was nice.

Later today, it's my family's thanksgiving, so we can all go to the in-laws for the actual day.

It's My Party

2011-11-18T16:00:00.001-06:00

In honor of my birthday tomorrow (no! I promise! I'm not fishing for wishes! ^_-), I am having a little birthday get together at my place tonight. Some good pizza, yummy cupcakes, and some good friends (some whom I haven't seen in YEARS), should make for a fun and interesting evening (like figuring out how all those people will fit in the apartment??)!

Corporate Citizenship & Volunteerism

2011-11-17T20:55:00.001-06:00

Did you know that my company has a separate division that JUST handles charity work and setting up volunteer opportunities for its employees? Yep, a company that not only claims to do community work, but actually does.

Today alone I got two emails with quite a few opportunities around the community to volunteer.

But this had specific relevance to me today, because I actually got to participate in one of those opportunities.

Today I, along with several other people, helped the Meals on Wheels organization by decorating blank gift bags that will contain small items (usually toiletries and the like) that will be delivered to recipients of the program during Christmas. Sometimes, they said, these are the only Christmas "gifts" these people receive. So, Meals on Wheels was especially glad we were decorating them, since many of these folks really like and appreciate things like this. It will make their day. Part of me makes me sad that some of these people live their lives like that. Another part of me is glad that I could help. And really, if I didn't have an actual job to perform, I would totally love to run around and volunteer at all the great things they do.

I know many people that would like to volunteer around the community, but it's hard to find things to do, or the time to do it. So, my company puts a lot of groups together to go help out during business hours (and we are not docked pay for it), but they also do a lot of company-sponsored events that benefit those in the community.

It makes me feel good to be part of such a great company that I am learning to love even more now that I am a full-fledged employee!

Wordle

2011-11-16T21:22:00.001-06:00

Wordle was kind of all the rage a few years back. It's a service that let you do word clouds. You can change the fonts, colors, orientation of anything you want. I did one some time ago with the complete text of my favorite novel Pride and Prejudice. It's pretty cool.

I wanted a cool quote or something to add as a little accent to a display of two pictures of my cats, and then I remembered Wordle. So, I pulled up how you say the word "cat" in several other languages, and put my decor colors (well, as close as I could get to them) as my custom palette, copied it, printed it on some cool paper, and framed it. So easy!

I'll take a pic of that and the other one maybe one day soon, but, this is what it looks like:

Cool, eh? Like me, you could do the text of a novel, or maybe your blog?

Maybe your kids' names? Important dates? Places? The world (or WORDLE) is your oyster!

Now go have fun with Wordle!

My Chatting Days

2011-11-15T20:28:00.001-06:00

Christine's reminder that she and I have known each other for 14 years made me: one, take pause, and two, start to reminisce.

Today, with a coworker, somehow we got on the topic of chatting back in our college days (although she is quite younger than me), and using instant messaging systems as well, like AIM or ICQ (well, at least she was young enough to have used that). I told her I first started IMing on Apache -- anyone remember THAT?! *LOL* Wow.

It wasn't so much the chatting, which was a lot of fun, but the type of chatting. I frequented sites where there was a lot of roleplaying going on. Usually in the fantasy vein. It was free-form, text-based, and it was so much fun. I would stay up for hours and hours playing. My writing skills improved so much during that time! First off, I had the chance to develop my own character (or characters), really delving into deep stories, partly due in thanks to some fabulous RPers I could play off of. Also, since it was constantly updating/refreshing (unlike a forum), I had to be on my toes. You never know what the other players were going to do! Sometimes I tried to push and prod to a desired outcome, but sometimes it just wouldn't happen. Oh! And a lot of this happened during dialup days, so there would be many times when our connection would drop us! Talk about being left hanging! *LOL*

But, as with any community, there was drama behind the scenes (yes, some involved romance), and sometimes it was just personalities that butted heads. Although, some of those people that I had the most friction with when I first started RPing, are some that I was the closest to for awhile.

And some I am still friends with, in some shape or form, like Christine, Charles, or Richard. ^_^

And others, others just sort of dropped off the face of the earth and I still do miss them -- is that weird? The one I think of the most often is this one guy I met. I think he was a senior in high school, and I had already graduated from college, or was about to, when we started RPing. I think he went by the name Samhain (or, at least, one of his more well-known characters). We had a great little friendship. He was like a little brother, although sometimes I suspected he might have had a slight crush on me (but that's just my opinion). I want to say his real name was something like Jason? Even though we had a nice friendship, he didn't share much of his personal life, which was probably smart. I also remember he had a twin brother, and they both were gonna play soccer in college? I remember him sort of dropping off the face of the earth, and then life went on, I stopped chatting, but once in awhile I would stop in and see if anyone I knew had been by (because you could leave private messages for the other person). And I saw a message he had left me ... but it was months and months old. I responded, but ... never heard back from him. So, Samhain, if you ever come across this, Reeny wants to know how you're doing? ^_^

Oh, man, I just remembered another person: Korbeau. Oh, he was a dreamy writer. AND British. I think he called me once, leaving a message. Ah, the accent..... *dreamy sigh*

Dang, now I'm dredging up all these memories! Wow, I wish we could get a reunion together with all the old chatting people -- online, of course, and reminisce. Only they would truly understand, I think. I know, I can't really go back to those days, and I don't have time to, but, it's nice to remember them fondly.

Orientation & Lessons Learned

2011-11-14T18:47:00.001-06:00

Today I took the second half of the day "off" work to attend Orientation, since I'm technically a "new" employee. So, technically I was still working, I suppose.

It was mostly getting to know other people, and the company and how they work, and how they like diversity in the workplace, and a few other odds and ends.

At the end of orientation, we were asked to write down three things we learned today. It could be about the company, ourselves, someone else, etc.

So, these are at least three things I learned today:

1) Neiman Marcus almost didn't exist! If the partners (way back in the early, early 1900s) hadn't of passed on an investment in a little-known beverage now known as Coca-Cola, I wouldn't be working here today.

2) I need to be more vocal in standing up for what's right and correcting others on their behavior (derogatory comments, gossip, etc.) -- I avoid conflict, but I need to be better.

3) Age is no barrier to loves and passions which can follow us all our life. (I learned this because this fashionable older lady, who happens to be a grandmother of three, surprised us by saying that she and her husband go out riding on Harleys. You just never know about someone. Which, I guess, is also a lesson in and of itself. ^_^)

A Mostly Typical Sunday

2011-11-13T17:12:00.001-06:00

Sundays around here are usually pretty typical.

As most of you know, I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (aka Mormon), and we observe Sundays as the Sabbath day, and try to make it a day for rest and worship. We also try not to do things that are normal for the rest of the week. So, in other words, we don't shop on Sundays, or do things like go to the movies, or say, an amusement park. We try not to do chores. And, in my family personally, we listen to only classical or church music.We focus on attending church service, and also on other "quiet" and meaningful activities, like reading scriptures, or other books, visiting family and the sick, journaling, doing family history, and yes, even naps. It IS the day of rest, isn't it?

So, with that said, here's how the day went for us today. I said it was mostly typical, because it varied a little in its normality.

8:30 am -- Woke up and showered
9:00 am -- Ate breakfast while checking email/FB/news/practice music (you'll see why)
10:00 am -- Got ready for church (did hair, got dressed, put on makeup)
10:30 am -- Left for church
10:45 am -- Arrived at church, settled into pew, then checked on mic (yes, it's coming)
11:00 am -- Church begins
11 am - 2 pm -- Block of meetings at church (will explain later)
2:30 pm -- Arrive home, change clothes, eat lunch while checking email/FB/etc.

Then in the afternoon we usually watch some TV together. We cook dinner for the coming week, and just have some quality time, including calling family.

So, that's usually our Sundays. But, I know what you're thinking: 3 hours for church?! *LOL* Yep.

Our first hour (usually a teensy longer) is what we call Sacrament Meeting, because during that time we take the sacrament (aka communion). We also sing hymn and have speakers (instead of just one preacher), etc. The the second hour is Sunday School, and the third hour is when the youth, men, and women split up into separate classes. During both second and third hours, the children gather together in what we call Primary. Part of their time is spent in age-divided classes, and part of the time they are together learning about the scriptures and also singing and learning songs. [I am currently a teacher in the Primary -- my class is the 3-year-olds that turned/are turning 4 this year.] So, that's about it in a nutshell. (Please feel free to ask questions, if you want.)

However, today was a little atypical because instead of having speakers, the Primary (children) put on a program during most of the time. It usually involves them speaking parts (which they sometimes come up with) and singing songs revolving around a specific theme. (Every year they have a new theme to focus on during that year.) This year it was about the scriptures. So, remember me mentioning practicing music and checking on a mic? Well, that's because, during one of the songs, I was asked to sing the descant that is available for it. (Descant: a superimposed counterpoint to a simple melody sung typically by some or all of the sopranos.) So, yes, I can sing, but I get quite nervous singing in front of people by myself. However, as long as I know the song/part well, I'm usually okay at controlling the nerves. Luckily, this is a part I sing often when they sing this song normally, because it's just such a pretty descant.

And THAT was my slightly atypical, typical Sunday.

An Award!

2011-11-12T22:01:00.001-06:00

My friend Christine gave me an award! Isn't she sweet? We've known each other for years and years online -- have not met in real life, yet. But, I've maintained a friendship with her longer than I have with many people, so, there ya go! ^_^ Thanks, Kalligenia! ^_^

The award comes with three short rules:
1. Thank the giver and link back to the blogger who gave it to you.
2. Reveal your top bloggers and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog.
3. Copy and paste the award on your blog. Check, see above.

I'm passing the award on to three bloggie friends:
1. Charles - Also another friend I've known online for quite some time; an awesome writer, and just SO smart!
2. Reva - She and I are technically only online friends, even though I do remember her from real life back in the day. I so wish we had met and become friends then, but, well, what do you do? She's a faithful blogger!
3. Sarah - A recent friend (well, compared to the other two, but she and I just clicked when we met), and she's just amazing. Smart, sweet, kind, gorgeous and talented! And she inspires me with making her passion her living. (Remind me why you're my friend again? *LOL*)

3 Outlandish Wishes

2011-11-11T15:04:00.001-06:00

Today's prompt is in honor of 11/11/11. Make three wishes.

I decided to do outlandish ones for mine, because, well, I can! ^_-

I wish for ...

1) 20 million dollars, tax-free. (Kind of an arbitrary number, and oh, sure, I know what you're thinking, why not go for more? No need for me to be greedy. ^_- Spread the wealth around, I say.)

2) An all-expenses-paid, luxury trip around the world, to take place during a whole year--maybe longer. (Notice I said "luxury"--yeah, I like nice things, and I am NOT a backpackin' kinda girl.)

3) To be completely healthy (free of ailments; disease; etc.) for the rest of my life. (How else will I be able to spend that money, or go on that trip? But really, not having to suffer from even inconvenient things like back pain, or a sinus infection, would be so nice!)

How about you? What are your wishes?

(And, cool nifty fact I learned today: if you take the last two digits of the year you were born in, and add those to the age you are/will be this year, it will equal 111. For example: If you were born in 1980, you will be 31 this year, so 80+31=111. Cool, huh?!)

Take it all in, people.

I'm Gonna Be Published!

2011-11-10T20:58:00.001-06:00

But, maybe not quite as you think. ^_^

No, not my sad little novel which is still collecting the proverbial dust while it waits for a heavy edit. No, my fanfic hasn't been picked up to join the ranks of "canon" in your local bookstore.

I'm actually getting some of my digital scrapbook layouts published. Yep. All those crafty magazines, with oodles and oodles of inspiration usually come because of people like me.

So, how did this all come about? As part of my requirement for being on the Design Team at PeppermintCreative, I'm supposed to submit layouts for publication. I've been doing this for a little while now, and had not heard anything back. Partly is because I'm shy about submitting stuff, so I don't usually send much.

But, it looks like things finally paid off!

I am getting not one, not two, but three layouts published in ScrapStreet magazine. I think they're mostly online, but that's okay. Gotta start somewhere, right? So, they only told me it would be in the coming months, so I'll let you know exactly when.

And since I'll have to remove my layouts from galleries online, I thought I'd share them here.

Enjoy!

I think the favorite of those is the last one. The first two were made using templates (which, yes, is allowed), but that last one was ALL me. Literally! *LOL*

So, yay me!

I Came Home to a Different Place Than I Left

2011-11-09T19:59:00.000-06:00

Okay, isn't that a cool title? Sounds like the great beginning to an interesting story. It's mine! No stealing! *LOL*

Sadly, I do not have an interesting tale to tell you that corresponds with the title, just a quick, strange one.

Yesterday morning, I left my home at Apartment Complex A, and returned home to Apartment Complex B.

Yep, apparently, during the day, my apartment complex made a cosmetic changeover to a new name. And, apparently, new owners. I also had a lovely note on the door from the "new owners" telling us about this change.

I know things like this don't happen overnight, but we had no inkling whatsoever! Weird thing is, this complex isn't even 6 months old yet. Although, I can't say I'm surprised. Still, as lovely as they are, we're probably only at about 70% occupancy (my estimate, only). That doesn't bode well.

I just hope that when it comes time to renew our lease, that they will be VERY accommodating. If not, as much as I love this place, we may just have to move on. That's life.

Traumatic Experience

2011-11-08T20:27:00.000-06:00

(Still feeling off tonight, but doing better than last night. I think. Thanks for the well wishes.)

Today's prompt was about traumatic experiences. I admit, I've never been through anything really crazy, what I think might be deemed a TRUE traumatic experience, but, this is as close as I can get:

It was early summer 2001, and I was on my way to work -- it was a nice day, I had packed a yummy lunch, and I had the radio going. I'm driving down the highway, not so cool in my 4-door Cavalier, but, it was mine, and it had yet to fail me in any big way (and it had been paid off for a few years, too), and I see some traffic stopped up ahead, I think because of construction.

So, I started to slow down around a curve, and I glance in my rearview mirror to see this van barreling down behind me, and I panic for a moment, until I see him swerve into the next lane at his speed. I sighed in relief, relaxed, and then glanced in my mirror again. For the brief second it took me to understand what was about to happen, this went through my mind: Oh, so there was a truck going equally as fast behind that van, but he DIDN't have time to get out of the way, so--

CRASH. CRUNCH.

I was tossed about, as much as I could be, while being restrained in a car that just got rear-ended by a Ford F350 Truck and pushed into the Ford F150 in front of me.

Things fell: my rearview mirror; my fuzzy dice (which actually had the string brake); my stereo popped out of the console and onto the floor.

My body was tingling all over, and it almost felt like I couldn't feel my body, but I could, if that makes sense.

People got out from the truck in front of me and asked me if I was okay. And then I started bawling.

The rest I don't remember well, except when the cop shows up, and most of my crying is done, although, I'm still kinda sniffling. He asks me if I'm okay, and I tell him that I think I am. He looks at me and points at my shirt. "Looks like you've got some blood there." I look down, then back and him, and go (a little whiny), "No, that's my lipstick." And we both chuckle a little. (Really, you should hear me tell this, because it's actually somewhat amusing.) So, yeah, apparently, me chest/shirt had come up enough, and/or my face had come down enough, or both, so hat my lips smeared my shirt. Lovely.

So the cop tries to get me out of the car, but the driver's side door won't open. So, they had to open my back door on the driver's side, so they could get my door open and out.

Once out, I feel okay, and I look at my car. It's like an accordion. It's crunched up on both sides. *sigh*

Long story, short, my car was totaled. I only made out with a sprained toe (I was wearing sandals). Oh, and countless of large, nasty bruises from the seat belt. But, nothing else. Not even whip lash. Apparently, it's because I was relaxed at the time of impact. I didn't have a moment to tense up when I noticed the second car. Crazy, eh?

So, the moral of this story is: when you're about to get into an accident, relax! It'll save you loads of pain later. Yeah, easier said than done, eh?

And THAT is my traumatic experience.

Unwell

2011-11-07T22:26:00.000-06:00

I am not feeling well, so this is all you get for today. Come back tomorrow, and I might have more for you.

What Earthquake?

2011-11-06T16:54:00.000-06:00

So, apparently the large earthquake (well, in relative terms) that hit Oklahoma yesterday was felt in parts of North Texas (which is where I live). I didn't even know about it until I got onto FB around 11:30 p.m. CT and many of my local friends were talking about it.

Weird, I thought. Maybe it's because we were watching a TV show somewhat loudly, but even my cats didn't react (and I know how some pets can get). Or, maybe, it really wasn't that strong. But, I didn't notice it. Nor did Brian.

Which led me to tell him about a story of when I experienced an earthquake--a real one.

For those that don't know, I was born in Costa Rica. I lived there until I was about 8 1/2. Costa Rica is lush, tropical, and beautiful. It also has several volcanoes. Some active. So, earthquakes are pretty standard there. Sort of like the California of Central America, but, with volcanoes. (Which, btw, there are several state parks surrounding several of the volcanoes, and they are very neat to visit, but I digress....)

I was about 8, or so (I'm pretty sure this was shortly before we came back to live in the States), and it was Easter weekend. My parents were out of the country, so we were being cared for by one of the maids (oh, I know, this sounds pretentious, but, it's Central America, everyone has maids), and the maid, my younger brother and I were upstairs watching an evening movie on TV. The movie was about the crucifixion of Christ. (It was Easter weekend, people! And in Latin America, it has this weird life of its own. One day I will tell you about the weird processions down the street with a fake Christ in a glass casket. Oh, yeah.)

Anywho, I kid you not, it's the actual crucifixion scene, and the house starts shaking--badly. The lights go out, and since it's night, it's pretty much pitch black in the house. A window slams shut. (Oddly enough, it didn't break the glass.) I look out the window shortly before all the lights went out, and noticed a crack forming in the cinder block wall surrounding our house (instead of a fence; more sturdy, and most of the houses are made of cinder block as well). Our maid ushers us to the stairs to make our way down, and I get some dust in my eye. My older siblings are downstairs, and we all make it out the front door and to the street, where all our neighbors are gathering, and, I kid you not, the moon was blood red! Talk about spooky, scary stuff to an eight year old! Yeesh! (Later I learned that ash from a volcano can make it appear as if the moon is red, but tell that to a scared eight-year-old little girl that just got tossed about as she was watching the crucifixion of Christ.)

It didn't last long, and everyone was okay. We all dragged our mattresses downstairs into the living room and slept on the floor together, just in case. There were a few aftershocks, but nothing like the first one (I don't remember what it was on the Richter Scale).

And that's my odd, 8-year-old-tinged memory of one of the worst quakes I have endured. Which, seeing some that people have gone through recently, was really just a walk in the park.

A 5-Star Book

2011-11-05T21:36:00.003-05:00

Brian always laughs at my reviews of all things meant to entertain -- TV shows, movies, books -- because I tend to give average ratings. Out of 5 stars, I tend to give 3. Three stars meant I enjoyed it, and that it did its job. 4 means I really enjoyed it, but it still left me wanting. 5 is hard to come by. 5 must blow my socks off. Must really touch me in some way.

And, something did, recently. The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern. Even halfway through this book it had enchanted me. And today I finished it, and it did not disappoint. Oh sure, I wish some things had turned out differently, but I see how they ended up like they did. And that perhaps they needed to.

So, here is my Goodreads review about this book:

I hardly ever give 5 star reviews, but if I could, I would give it even more stars. Yes, this book was THAT good!

I love, love, love this book. Honestly, if I could say that I was in love with a book, then I would say that about this book.

To me, this is a book that I could see myself writing (if I had this story to tell). The language was beautiful, but not overly done. The characters were interesting, but not caricatures (which could have been easy to do, seeing as this was about a circus).

The mood was Victorian and Gothic, mysterious, and magical. I felt drawn into a world that I could only compare to the movies The Illusionist/The Prestige, and The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. And yet not quite, yet so much more.

When reading this book, I did not feel like I was reading a story; I felt like I was being taken on a journey, as if I was part of the experience. This was partly helped by the author's use of small vignettes regarding aspects of the circus to help draw the reader in.

The only thing that somewhat took me aback was the use of 3rd person present tense, which isn't something usually done, and that there are overlapping stories that jump a little back and forth in the timeline of this book. However, you get mostly used to the tense, and you see why the author chose to move along the timeline as she did. After all, many of her characters say, "it's all about timing."

I originally got this book from the library, but this IS a book I will own soon. It has been deemed worthy enough to join the ranks of my other beloved hardbacks.

I cannot recommend this book enough. You may not love it as much as I do, but I think you'll be hard pressed to say you didn't enjoy it.

It has officially been added to my all-time favorite books!

After I posted this, I saw some reviews by other people that gave it 1 or 2 stars. Really?? But, I guess that's what makes life interesting -- people have so many different points of view. So, this book wasn't for them, and that's okay. It was completely meant for ME. And I am totally okay with that. ^_^

The Return of First Friday Fanfic with Dream Giver (Parts 1–6)

2011-11-04T20:38:00.003-05:00

I realize it's been over 2 years since I posted this fanfic. (Did you catch my hints?) And I realize that the only way for me to call myself a writer of any shape or form, is to, well, write. I have two unfinished stories (well, two that I care about right now), and one novel in need of a serious edit. So, if I can finish this story, move on to the next one, then I can maybe flex these unused muscles and one day soon be able to edit/re-write my novel and be happy with it. I was inspired to get back to this by my sunshiny friend Sarah, who has gotten back to something creative she had left behind (and which I had no idea about)—she motivated me to get back to something creative which I love.

So, here is the all the story which I have posted on here so far (figured it would be easier for you than going and hunting for each part). AND, Part 6 (which is brand new to you) is posted at the end. As always, constructive criticism and feedback is appreciated. I have some notes already, but anything YOU can add will help this become a polished piece of work, even if the only light of day it will see is here and fanfiction.net. ^_^ Enjoy!

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(Author's Note: This fanfic takes place sometime during Season 7 of the show–just in case anyone didn't want any spoilers. Not that they're huge. Well, maybe.... You've been warned.)

Dream Giver
(a Stargate SG-1 FanFic)

Part 1
The preliminary survey had barely touched on the woodland they now encountered. Having earlier watched it through a tiny view screen with muted colors showing through a grainy picture, the party of four now stood in awe as a noonday sun streamed down through the leaves of large, lush trees and warmed them.

“I could get used to this,” the leader quipped as he swiped his cap off and scratched his gray-haired head for a moment before adjusting his cap back on his head.

“It is beautiful, Sir,” the blonde-haired woman smiled with a warmth given to someone that was a good friend, and not just a superior.

“Indeed,” the large, black man nodded, the golden symbol on his forehead gleaming softly in the rays of the sun.

The brown-haired, bespectacled man nodded as he made his way down the steps of the landing. “It appears as if this is a place of worship, or some sort of shrine.” He pointed to several containers filled with exotic flowers placed carefully around the area. His forehead crinkled as he pushed his glasses up his nose. “But I don’t see any writings, so I—”

“Hey!” the leader called out playfully. “We’ll have time for that later, first we need to—”

“Sir?” the woman called out calmly, but with a hint of chiding as her gaze landed on two figures peeking out from behind a tree.

The rest of the group followed the woman’s gaze.

“Oh, hey,” the leader blinked. “Hey there!” he called out cheerfully. “Come on out.”

“We will not harm you,” the large man said stoically.

The woman grimaced as she looked at the large man and merely shook her head with a soft laugh.

The figures came out from the shadows and walked toward the group slowly. They were young women, both with pale hair, light eyes and slender figures. Though their features were distinct, one might have thought them to be sisters. Their simple dresses of a silken material, floated behind them as they came close. Warm smiles touched their faces as they were now near enough for greeting.

The taller one spoke. “We thought it possible, but no one has ever come through the Chapa’ai before.”

The brown-haired man jumped a little and made his way to right in front of the women. “Chapa’ai. You know this word?”

The young women gasped softly as their eyes went hugely round. Huge smiles then began to spread across their faces. They crossed their hands lightly over their lips and gave a bow of their heads.

The shorter one spoke, with an uneven, young voice as she looked back up at the brown-haired man. “We never thought we would ever get to see you! There are many that believe you do not exist.” She almost seemed to giggle, and the taller one put a hand on her shoulder.

“We, however, are not of that belief,” the taller and seemingly older one said calmly, with a hint of delight, as she pointed to the flowers. “We are of a group that believed one day we would see you.”

The brown-haired man blinked as his eyes narrowed. “You’ve been expecting me?”

The older woman merely smiled and then turned to the younger one. “You must tell the others! I will lead them shortly.”

The younger woman nodded, gave another strange bow and took off running.

The rest of the party looked on in disbelief.

“Wait a second!” the leader called out. “You want us to go with you?”

The young woman turned to him and smiled softly. “Is that not the reason you came?”

The leader’s mouth opened as if he was about to speak, then he shrugged and nodded. “Yeah, sure, okay, but first I’d like to know what’s going on?”

“I do not understand.”

The leader narrowed the gap between himself and the brown-haired man. “Why do you think you’ve been expecting him?”

The young woman smiled beatifically. “Because he is the Dream Giver.”

Part 2
The SG-1 team all looked at one another, perhaps trying to see if anyone else in the group understood what this young woman had just said.

“Dream Giver?” Major Samantha Carter asked, brows furrowed.

The young woman smiled widely as she nodded and continued looking at Daniel Jackson.

Teal’c quirked an eyebrow, his lips twitching just a moment. “What is this ‘Dream Giver’?”

The young woman didn’t blink an eye as she answered. “The one who gives dreams, of course.”

“Oh, of course!” Colonel Jack O’Neill let out quickly and then pursed his lips together.

Blue eyes narrowing in thought, Daniel finally let out slowly, “One who gives dreams to whom?”

She blinked. “You do not know?” She didn’t give Daniel a chance to answer as she smiled softly. “Of course, you do not know her name. She said names were never given, that’s why she called you the Dream Giver. It was the only way she knew you.”

“She?” Daniel’s glasses slid a little off of his nose as he looked at the woman.

The woman smiled widely, almost beaming, and stood straighter. “Yes, my sister, Elpis.”

Sam blinked. “You mean the girl that just ran off?”

The woman laughed delightedly. “Oh, no. That was my youngest sister, Hebe. I am Daphnis. My oldest sister, Elpis is the one of dreams.”

“Uhm,” Jack called out, “Daphnis, could you please excuse us for a moment?” He gestured to his teammates to follow him off a ways.

She merely nodded and backed off herself.

Once gathered, Jack began to whisper. “Okay, who here thinks these people are nuts?” He raised his hand and looked around.

Sam chuckled softly. “Well, Sir, to be honest, this isn’t the first time the local female population has become enamored of Daniel.”

Jack gave a wry grin.

Daniel’s mouth dropped open, a hurt expression crossing his face. “Sam? Humor? Really?”

She shrugged and tried to contain a large grin.

He scowled. “So suddenly this is all my fault?”

“Major Carter’s comment is valid, Daniel Jackson,” Teal’c said calmly, though a touch of a raised eyebrow also confirmed his mirth.

Daniel threw up his hands and sighed.

Jack patted Daniel on the back. “It’s okay, Daniel. Really.” He then looked around to the rest of them. “Seriously, though, what do we think?”

“They appear to be harmless,” Teal’c spoke first.

“But why do they think that Daniel’s this Dream Giver, and not any one of us?” Sam’s brows furrowed.

Jack nodded. “Good question, Carter.” He looked toward Daphnis and waved her over. She nodded and walked toward them. “Daphnis, why is it that you think Daniel here is the Dream Giver? Couldn’t it just as easily be one of us? We all did come through the Chapa’ai.”

She blinked at looked at Daniel. “Daniel? That is your name?”

Daniel nodded.

She smiled softly and then turned to Jack. “We know Daniel is the Dream Giver, because we know his face.”

“What!” both Daniel and Jack questioned in disbelief.

Daphnis’ face fell a little. “Perhaps it is better that I take you to my father and the others. He is the leader of our clan.”

“Yes!” Jack nodded. “Take us to your leader.” He grinned widely.

“Sir,” Sam chided lightly.

“Oh, come on Carter, you know it’s fun to say!”

She merely shook her head with a boys-will-be-boys smile on her lips.

Daphnis blinked, nodded, and began to lead them through a path in the forest toward her home.

Part 3
After a few miles, the group emerged from the forest onto a wide plain with deep green grasses and majestic mountains in the far distance soaring into powder-puff clouds and azure skies. Several bloom-bearing trees lined paths into the prosperous village with wood and stone homes, with the peaks of more decorative stone and marble buildings showing the heart of the town.

A soft breeze caressed around them, rustling leaves and carrying the sweet scent of spring.

“Wow!” breathed out Jack.

Sam smiled as she inhaled deeply. “I think I could get used to this too, Sir.”

Daphnis smiled widely as she looked at them. “It is beautiful, is it not?”

Daniel raked a hand through his hair. “I wouldn’t mind retiring here,” he chuckled softly.

Daphnis’ eyes grew round in surprise. “You would wish to stay with us, Dream Giver?” she exclaimed with hope.

His smile fell a little, softening as he looked at her after calling him by the title apparently bestowed upon him. “Well,” he began, but was cut off as a small group of people emerged from a nearby building, making their way quickly toward SG-1.

A tall, older man with a large girth and sparse, darker blond hairs on his head led the group comprised of quite a few young girls who looked like Daphnis and her sister Hebe, as well as a few young men with similar light blond hair and eyes of varying degrees of blue.

Daphnis stepped out to greet him with the now-familiar bow of the hands over the lips. “Abaris, we have visitors.” She smiled gently at him, and turned to Jack. “Colonel O’Neill, this is the Abaris of our clan. He is our leader,” and with a hint of pride added, “and my father.”

Jack held out his hand and, after bowing to him, the Abaris took Jack’s hand hesitantly, unsure of what to do until Jack started pumping it.

The Abaris laughed, his darker blue eyes crinkling at the corners. “Well met, travelers!” His eyes scanned the SG team, and stopped on Daniel. He gave a quick glance to Jack, recognizing him as leader. “And these must be your companions?”

After the quick introductions, the Abaris stepped toward Daniel, his eyes intent. He whispered softly to himself: “It seems true.” He then blinked and smiled gently, addressing Daniel. “My daughter Daphnis has told you whom we believe you to be?”

Daniel’s brow furrowed and nodded. “She mentioned it briefly, but, I must tell you, I don’t really understand what’s going on. Could you maybe explain more about this Dream Giver?”

The Abaris pursed his lips briefly, then sighed. “Perhaps it is better if I take you to Elpis. She will be able to tell us if you are truly him. I sent Hebe on ahead to let her know.” Spreading his arm out, he began walking away from the village. “Please come.”

As they walked, the Abaris talked about their village and home, about Elpis being with other young women, picking fruit in a nearby field. The SG-1 team asked varying questions about the climate, their enemies, if any, in addition to information regarding medicines and herbs.

Daniel, normally very talkative with inhabitants of any new world they encountered, curious to find out their history, lagged in silence behind the group. Samantha caught Jack’s eye and motioned him to Daniel, who fell behind, in step with the archeologist.

“So, Daniel, what’s an ‘Abaris’?”

Daniel blinked several times, then looked at Jack. “Uhm, Abaris was a priest of Apollo.”

Jack’s eyes narrowed and he murmured, “Apollo.”

Daniel sighed. “Apollo, the Greek god of the Sun? Also medicine, archery, and music. And also the god of—” he broke off as he noticed Jack yawning. “Anyway, Apollo gave Abaris a golden arrow which was supposed to cure diseases and even spoke oracles.”

Jack scratched under his cap. “The arrow spoke?”

Daniel rolled his eyes at Jack. “Yes, Jack, the arrow spoke,” he quipped sarcastically, but quickly resumed the lecture. “And, it also rendered him invisible and allowed him to ride through the sky.”

Jack chuckled. “Must have been a big arrow.”

“Indeed,” quipped Teal’c, who had joined them while Sam continued talking with the Abaris.

Jack grinned at Teal’c, then motioned in the direction of the Abaris. “So…?”

Daniel shrugged. “From what I gather, the clans or villages of this world have leaders who call themselves ‘Abaris’, though they aren’t necessarily priests, from what I can tell, as I didn’t see any symbols of any particular pantheon. And, since Daphnis didn’t give us his actual name, it would seem that if his name is known, he is usually addressed only by his title.”

“Ah.”

“Although,” continued Daniel, now seeming more like his usual self, “all of the names we have encountered so far have been from Ancient Greece. Names of gods or goddesses, or those associated with them. But they don’t really look like ancient Greeks, do they?” He pushed his glasses back up the bridge of his nose. “Actually, if I had to put a race to them, I would say perhaps Nordic.” He shook his head, his eyebrows furrowing. “Very strange.”

“I’ll say,” said Jack, as they caught up to the Abaris, who was being approached by a group of women, some holding baskets of fruit, all with the same fair skin, hair and eyes—except for one.

Hebe had her arms linked with a woman of olive skin, whose long brown hair curled softly, hints of red glinting in the sun. Tilted eyes of emerald-green laced with lashes so dark it almost seemed as if they were rimmed in kohl contrasted with the smattering of light freckles across her nose. The women quickly made their way toward the newcomers, bowing to the Abaris, though the one with tan skin gave him a warm embrace.

The Abaris held the woman and they looked into each other’s eyes.

“Is it true?” her melodic voice asked him.

He merely turned, and the group behind him parted, leaving a path to Daniel. “My daughter, Elpis.”

Her eyes went round and her lips parted as she stood the distance, looking at Daniel. She swallowed softly and licked her lips, approaching him cautiously. Her eyes began to glisten as her lips gathered into a wide smile, a dimple dancing into one cheek as she stopped before him. Her eyes darted over him, trying to absorb every detail.

Daniel shifted on his feet, watching this woman, until his eyes caught hers and held them. He spoke gently. “I’m Daniel.”

Elpis stared intently into Daniel’s blue eyes, and then her smile faded, the unshed tears of happiness now falling down her cheeks in sadness. “You—you do not know me.”

He winced slightly at her tears and shook his head slowly. “I’m sorry,” he breathed softly.

Her face fell and she nodded lightly, before turning and walking back to her father. “By your leave, Abaris.” She gave a quick bow and left hurriedly toward the village, with the calls out to her by her father quickening her pace even more.

The Abaris sighed deeply and turned to Daniel and the other members of his team. “Please forgive my daughter’s behavior. Seeing that you were not the Dream Giver has upset her. I assure you, she is usually the most cordial of many of my people.” He frowned slightly as he watched her form disappear over the rise.

“But Fath—uhm, Abaris,” Daphnis spoke up, “Elpis didn’t say that he was not the Dream Giver. All we know is that Daniel did not recognize her.”

Hebe lit up. “It is true, Abaris. He does look like the drawings!”

A few more murmurs of assent rippled through the small crowd.

The Abaris nodded. “Very true, my people. Very true.” He turned to SG-1. “Regardless of whether you are the Dream Giver or not, we never let visitors go without a meal. Please join us, friends. And perhaps we will settle this soon.”

Part 4
Shortly before updating Stargate Command on the situation, the team discovered that their radios weren’t working. After some quick diagnostics by Sam, they concluded that something near the village was causing electromagnetic interference. Once in proximity to the Stargate their radios seemed to work fine. Clear that there was no danger, they settled in for a meal in one of the common buildings, along with a few of the town elders, the Abaris, and a few of his eldest children—with a noticeably absent Elpis.

“So is it just me,” Jack murmured to the others at the dinner table as the meal was ending, “or is ‘one of these things not like the other’?” His eyes rolled a little, his last words trailing in a sing-song voice.

The Abaris looked in SG-1’s direction and called out to them, down the long table. “What was that you said, Colonel?”

Jack looked around at his team, but Daniel jumped in before the question could be answered.

“Abaris, one of your daughters mentioned drawings. Could I see them, possibly?” He looked around at the team. “It might help us understand a little bit more about what you believe me to be.”

“Of course, Daniel. They are housed in our simple museum but one building over.”

The Abaris led SG-1 next door, and they made their way through large rooms housing paintings and drawings, with a few stone sculptures and artifacts dug up through the years. Normally Daniel would have been interested in these, but he held close to the Abaris, intent upon seeing these drawings that supposedly depicted him.

“After the first drawings, we had many people attempt to copy the likeness, and so we put the small collection of the best likenesses in this small room.” He stepped into a side room, leading them to a main wall that stood in the middle of the room. Hung cautiously without frames and drawn on rough-hewn, canvas-like pages, were striking likenesses of Daniel.

Daniel stared at the images. Logically, he knew this couldn’t be possible. There was no way that some woman he didn’t even know, light years away from home, could possibly know him, much less what he looked like. But in front of these images his heart told him differently. Soon after they were mentioned as existing, he knew it had to be true. Her warm emerald eyes had held recognition, and he knew that it was his lack that caused her to turn away. She knew him. But how?

“It is indeed puzzling, Daniel Jackson,” Teal’c answered.

Daniel did a double-take and looked at Teal’c, finally realizing that he had spoken his question out loud.

Jack tapped on the wall, near the pictures. “Well, the clothes are different,” he said, trying to be helpful in pointing out discrepancies.

In the portraits it was hard to distinguish, but in the few full-bodied images, the Daniel in the pictures was shown wearing clothing similar to the locals of this town.

“And the glasses are missing,” Sam pointed out.

Daniel crinkled his nose and merely nodded.

“Who drew these,” she asked, turning to the Abaris.

“These were the first, and were drawn by Elpis herself.” He smiled. “She is quite talented.”

Almost as if he hadn’t heard the previous few comments, Daniel turned to them, eyes wide and throwing his hands out to the drawings. “Besides the fact that someone had a dream that had someone that looks like me in them, and they put that likeness to paper, why the shrine at the Stargate? Why the copies of the initial likeness? Why a whole wing dedicated to this Dream Giver! What makes him more than a dream?”

Sam, Jack and Teal’c looked at each other, then to the Abaris. With drooping brows, the Abaris looked softly at Daniel.

“While we call you, uh, him,” he said, pointing to the drawings, “the Dream Giver, it is only because he always appeared in dreams. Elpis claims that he spoke with her, almost as if he were with her. He helped her guide our village. He helped explain cures to simple ailments, helped us with ways of going about our daily lives in this village, and taught us how to guard against any who would come to us through the Chapa’ai. It was as if he were our protector.”

Daniel’s shoulders slumped, and he closed his eyes briefly, running both hands through his hair. “I need some air,” he murmured, making his way through the simple maze of halls and rooms.

Stepping outside, he let his eyelids slide to close and took a deep breath of the cool evening air, exposing his face to the sky. Slowly opening his eyes, his peripheral vision caught the last vestiges of light on one side, giving way to the inky night sky, which gently took twinkling stars into its embrace. He blinked. He was used to unfamiliar stars after traveling to so many planets, but he was surprised as he looked at these. These seemed vaguely familiar. He shook his head, took another deep breath, and started walking slowly around the village. Very few people were out—most could be heard in their homes, enjoying their evening meal.

Almost to the edge of the town, he was about to turn around and go back, when he heard singing. It was hard to make out at first, amidst the gentle coo of birds settling down for the night, and the evening sounds of crickets and cicadas floating through the night air. He walked toward one of the larger homes on the outskirts of the village, the song becoming louder, and clearer. He knew that song! Well, perhaps not the words—those eluded him—but the melody was quite familiar. The house sat right before a downhill slope, and at the back a large garden was surrounded by a stone half wall, with an impressive wrought-iron gate. In the middle of the garden, built up on more stone, was a gazebo that looked out to the plain and the mountains beyond. And in the gazebo, upon a marble bench and surrounded by ensconced candles, sat Elpis singing the hauntingly intimate tune.

He watched her from beyond the gate, transfixed upon her gentle song, filled with a heartbreaking hope, sung in a clear soprano. His breath caught as her face turned slightly toward him and he saw tears on her cheeks glistening in the candlelight’s glow. His jaw clenched slightly as he watched her sorrow from the shadows. In the darkness he whispered, “Who are you?”

Her fingers wiped at her tears as her song trailed off.

Daniel paused for a moment and turned silently to go.

“I am Elpis,” her voice chided softly, gently carried to him.

He turned back to the gate, sure that she didn’t mean to speak to him.

“But the question is,” she continued, as she rose and approached the gate, flickers of candlelight catching the green in her eyes like fireflies, “who are you?”

Part 5
“I . . . don’t think I am what you believe me to be, Elpis.” Daniel paused. “If I may call you, Elpis?” He paused again. “But then, I don’t know what else I would call you.”

She smiled softly at him through the gate. “You never used my name before, though I always suspected you knew it. It sounds nice when you speak it.” Her smile widened. “Hope.” She looked away briefly, as if recalling a memory, her eyes drifting closed dreamily. “The few times you addressed me, you referred to me as ‘Hope.’ But the weight given was not just the meaning. It felt like it could carry the universe.” Her eyes opened, and the darkened orbs stared at Daniel.

He looked at her, tilting his head slightly. “Haven’t you ever heard of the origin?”

She shook her head slightly, a few stray strands of hair catching a dance on the night wind. “All anyone knows around here is the meaning. There have been rumors of there being a story of origin, but it has been lost these many years.” She opened the gate to him. “Would you tell it to me?”

“Uhm,” he looked back, as if wondering if he should return to his team, but knew they wouldn’t leave without him, and turned back to Elpis, curious to know more of this woman who had dreamt and given his likeness. “Sure.”

She led him to the gazebo, under more light, and they sat on the bench on which she had been earlier.

The story of Pandora’s Box was short and simple to tell, but, he couldn’t help himself in expanding on the usual tale, finding an apt audience in Elpis. He found himself going off on several tangents as Elpis asked about other gods and goddesses mentioned in the tale. She laughed melodically as she caught names that were those belonging to friends or family, interested to know if they knew who they had been named after.

She had drawn up her legs onto the bench, crossing them under each other, with her arms resting on them, as she leaned into him, caught up in the last part of his telling.

“The lid was shut before that which was at the bottom could get out. And while the evils of mankind ran rampant throughout the world, one thing remained,” Daniel’s voice dropped softly, entreating Elpis to the end of his tale.

Her eyes round and lips parted slightly, she breathed out, “Hope.”

He smiled gently and nodded, blue eyes twinkling softly in the candle’s light and from the enjoyment he had in sharing his knowledge of history and mythology with a willing listener. “Also known as ‘Elpis.”

Her mouth widened into a winsome smile and she laughed in joy. “Such a wonderful story, Dream Giver!”

Daniel’s smile faded slightly. “Elpis, you can just call me Daniel.”

She glanced down, smiling at his correction and gently catching her lower lip under a few teeth for a moment. Her eyes slid up to meet his. “And what does your name mean, Daniel?”

“God is my judge.”

She more fully looked at him, her back straightening and her head tilting slightly, brows lightly furrowed. “Which god?”

He shook his head slightly. “It comes from a religious book we have on my planet called the Bible. In that book, there is only one God. Daniel is in one of the stories.”

“And these stories are different than the ones you told me about, with Pandora?”

“Yes, quite! Actually, our planet is rich with stories, histories and mythologies.”

Her eyes lit up. “Oh, Daniel, I would love to hear them all!”

He laughed out loud. “It might take a lifetime.” He then looked around. “Besides, it’s getting late, and I’m sure my friends are probably wanting to go back home.”

Almost as if summoned, one of Elpis’ youngest sisters, whom Daniel had not met before, came running from the home into the garden. “Elpis! The visitors are wishing to leave, but they cannot find—” she stopped, eyes widening, in front of Elpis and Daniel. “The Dream Giver!”

Elpis unfolded herself from the bench and stood, her face calmly collected. “Cyrene, your manners?” she chided with a stern warmth, different from the child-like wonder she had exposed to Daniel earlier.

The girl’s eyes went wider, as she placed her hands over her lips and gave a deep, though unsteady, bow to Daniel.

“Daniel, this is my sister, Cyrene. And,” Elpis glanced at Daniel briefly, pursing her lips, and then looking back to her sister, “Cyrene, he wishes to be called Daniel.”

Daniel smiled warmly and held his hand out to the girl, which she took briefly, the barely-lit area showing her lightly-blushed cheeks. She then squeaked out, “Your friends are looking for you, Daniel.”

“Thank you,” he nodded as he stood. “I figured they would probably be looking for me, seeing as I didn’t let them know where I was going.”

“Cyrene, please let the visitors know that Daniel has been found and will be along shortly.”

The young girl gave a hasty bow and ran out of the garden, disappearing around a corner of the house.

“You seem almost like a mother to her, rather than a sister,” Daniel said cautiously.

Elpis sighed, her face softening. “The burden of being the eldest sister. Especially since our mother died shortly after Cyrene was born.”

“I’m sorry. I had thought perhaps that was the case, but didn’t want to ask.”

She turned to him, lips curved down, and spoke softly. “You thought because you already knew. In my dreams I told you much about this, only letting you share in the knowledge of the obligation I feel in caring for my brothers and sisters.”

“Elpis, I—”

“I know, Daniel. You do not think you are my Dream Giver.” She then smiled gently. “But over some time ago, you became part of my life. And until you stopped visiting, I believed it would always be that way. You, watching over me and the people of this planet. Do you at least acknowledge that I believe you are?”

His eyes narrowed at something she had said.

“Yo, Danny boy!” Jack’s calling out from the gate broke into Daniel’s thoughts. “Time to go home.”

Jack was waving him over, with a patient Sam and stoic Teal’c next to him, along with the Abaris. “Let’s go! I don’t wanna miss The Simpsons.”

“I believe, O’Neill, that it is a re-run tonight.”

Jack shrugged as Daniel and Elpis approached. “Eh. They’re still funny, though.”

Elpis whispered to Daniel. “Who are the Simpsons?”

Daniel laughed lightly and rolled his eyes. “It’s a story of sorts, with moving pictures.”

Her eyes widened in wonder. “Moving pictures?”

But before he could explain more, the Abaris had opened the gate to ease them out, and Jack quipped. “So, kids, what were you doing over there?” He arched an eyebrow, gesturing toward the gazebo.

“Jack, we were discussing some ancient Greek myths. Elpis wanted to know the origin of her name, and so I told her.”

“Ah,” Jack intoned sarcastically, turning to Sam, “a great way to a girl’s heart, discussing dusty, old stories.” Sam chuckled softly.

Daniel sighed in exasperation.

“Will you be returning soon?” Elpis asked softly, addressing the whole group, but her eyes focused on Daniel.

The Abaris turned to O’Neill, in questioning, as well.

“Yeah, I suppose. We still need to get this whole ‘Dream Giver’ thing cleared up.”

Saying casual goodbyes, the group turned to leave, when Elpis caught Daniel by calling out to him.

“Daniel, do you believe I believe?”

He nodded. “I do,” he said softly. And he truly did.

A beatific smile crossed her face, and she then placed her hands familiarly, not over her lips, but over her heart, and bowed.

They left her like that, walking some way toward the Stargate, accompanied by the Abaris, before Teal’c asked, “Abaris, your daughter’s farewell was different than what I have noticed your people to use. Does its use have a meaning?”

The Abaris nodded, but took a few moments to respond. “The normal greeting and farewell is the hands lightly over the lips, with a bow of the head, or even a deeper bow. It means that what your lips speak is truth. Or, that it is to be perceived as truth. You see, we value honesty most highly here.” He then paused, glancing toward Daniel. “But with the hands over the heart…it is only used between intimates and rarely seen in public. It means that the heart speaks truth.”

The last few words the Abaris had spoken stayed with Daniel for a long time, even when the Abaris left them to continue on alone to the Stargate and they had made their way through, back home. Even until he was finally able to drift off to sleep that night, wondering if and how he was connected to the one whose heart spoke truth.

NEW! Part 6
The debrief in the morning had gone normally, with GeneralHammond’s probing questions over the people, the planet, and the supposition ofDaniel being connected with them somehow. All in the team had agreed that thedrawings had been as close to Daniel as to ascertain that it was almostpositively him. It was even ventured as possible that maybe more duplicateandroids of themselves were running around, but Jack’s idea was quicklydismissed, as Elpis was certain that Daniel and herself had only met indreams—beside the fact that, as far as they knew, all doubles of themselveswere no longer alive.

Over an early lunch, Daniel sat in a corner, his forktwirling absentmindedly in his mashed potatoes, as he thought over the previousday’s events, as well as the early-morning meeting.

“May I sit with you, Daniel Jackson?” Teal’c loomed over theseated Daniel, who gave him a brief nod.

They sat in silence for awhile, Teal’c eating and Danielfrowning at his food.

Finished with his meal, Teal’c leaned in across the table,and spoke in a low voice. “Not long ago, when your visions helped my son andBra’tac, I told you how your appearance in my dream helped me live when Bra’tacand I had to sustain ourselves on onesymbiote because of the injuries we sustained during the ambush of Kresh'tar .”

Daniel dropped his fork, his blue eyes looking at Teal’c inearnest.

“As an ascended being, Daniel Jackson, you were able toappear to me in my dreams, and even influence me. Could it not be possible thatyou appeared in this woman’s dreams, as well?”

Daniel sighed and ran his hands through his hair. “Maybe,Teal’c, but the only memories of being ascended that I’ve been able to rememberare those of Rya’c and Bra’tac. And we aren’t even sure of the time frame inwhich Elpis had her dreams with me in them.”

“Actually, Daniel,” Sam said, having approached quietly,with Jack in tow, “I think we may have a better grasp of it.” They slid in nextto Daniel and Teal’c and Sam continued. “While you were talking to Elpis, weasked the Abaris when Elpis began having her dreams. The time he mentioned wasfairly abstract to us, but he was able to provide a crude representation of acalendar, with the cycle of their moon. After converting their time to coincideby ours, using a variant, I was able to determine that—”

“You were all higher-plane and the like at the time,” Jackinterrupted.

“Sir!” Sam’s eyebrows shot up.

He grinned and shrugged. “Sorry, Carter, but you were takinga darn long time.”

“So I was ascended at the time,” Daniel breathed out slowly.

Sam’s lips thinned a little in compassion and nodded toDaniel. “The good news is, it probably wasyou who visited Elpis in her dreams. The question is: why?”

Jack quirked an eyebrow. “Does it really matter? I mean,while Daniel was ascended he did a lot of watching, and I know he helped outsome, at least with moral support, eh Danny boy?” He winked at Daniel. “So,what’s one more person? What’s special about her, besides being a little sweeton Daniel?”

“Sir,” Sam pursed her lips, chiding Jack.

Daniel frowned slightly at them. “Guys, I just think there’smore to this. More to her.”

Teal’c inclined his head slightly. “Elpis is like an orchidamong wildflowers. Clearly she is not natural-born to these people.”

Jack slapped the table with the palm of his hand. “Thank you!”

“Colonel?” Sam turned to Jack.

“I’ve been tryingto bring up the fact that Elpis looks nothinglike the rest of her people. But nobody was picking up on it.”

Sam frowned. “Uhm, Sir, it’s pretty obvious.”

Jack pouted, and Sam laughed softly at him.

Chewing on his lip lightly, Daniel looked at them. “Then Ithink we need to find out who Elpis is, and why, as an ascended being, I wouldhave visited her.”

“I think the easiest way to start is with a medical exam,”Sam’s eyebrows shot up in questioning to the group. “We might be able todetermine her ancestry by her DNA.”

Jack nodded. “I’ll talk to Hammond about bringing Elpis here.”

“No!” Daniel shouted, then blinked slowly, as if a little confusedat his vehemence.

“Daniel, are you okay?” Sam leaned into him, her eyebrows knitin concern.

He shrugged, raking fingers through his hair. “Yeah, I’mfine. I just got this feeling that it’s not a good idea to bring Elpis here.”

“Why not?” Jack raised an eyebrow.

Daniel shrugged again, glancing down for a moment. “Honestly,I don’t know.”

“Daniel Jackson, Dr. Fraiser and the medical staff are morethan capable to perform the tests necessary to ascertain Elpis’ origins. Theyhave helped many people, including all of us here, on more than one occasion.”Teal’c said, trying to comfort Daniel.

Sam smiled reassuringly. “Teal’c’s right, Daniel. We canonly gain so much from taking a sample of blood or DNA from off-world. It’ll bemore effective to have her here.”

Daniel’s blue eyes looked to every one of his teammates,pausing a moment at their insistent gazes and then finally sighing. “Okay, you’reright. And it makes sense. We’ll bring her here.”

Teal’c nodded, Jack grinned and muttered an “excellent”, andSam smiled softly as she put a hand on Daniel’s.

“She’ll be fine, Daniel. We won’t let anything happen toher.”

His lips tightened into a smile as he nodded, hoping thatthe feeling of anxiety he had deep down wouldn’t betray him to his friends.

[Part 7 coming the First Friday in December!]

A Little Night Music

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Today's NaBloPoMo prompt asks if you listen to music while you write, and I say, yes! But I take it even further than that. I listen to specific music while I create (whether on the computer, including digital scrapbooking, writing, or other craftiness),and while I work. I don't like anything too poppy (while I love the '80s and dance music, I feel that this can get me too hyped up) -- best to leave that for chores around the house, working out, or zooming down the highway. ^_^ I also don't want anything too, too mellow, as I don't want to fall asleep (again, I love classical music, but usually reserve it for Sundays).

But, to feel inspired, sometimes letting my mood elevate, sometimes letting it come down some, I listen to what people would classify as "New Age" music. However, I like to also throw in "Electronic(a)" because I think that more closely resembles my favorite genre of music to work by. Think of artists like Enya, Engima or Loreena McKennit (a little closer to the New Age), then throw in Secret Garden and Amethystium, then toss in Deep Forest, Delerium (yep, that's how it's spelled), and Sleepthief, to garner more of the electronic sound.

To me, this music inspires me, whether with the magical quality of the sounds, or with the story being told, it just makes me want to create! ^_^ (And it doesn't hurt that most of the time I feel transported to another world, but yet still can retain myself grounded in this one.)

And so, I leave you with a song I first heard on my Pandora New Age station, and it immediately brought a scene to my mind that I HAD to write a story around. (Hmm, is that a hint? ^_-)

This is Sleepthief's "Just Say It"

Love, love, love it!

And, if you're interested in any other of Sleepthief's music, check out their YouTube channel -- he does some AWESOME music videos (a little strange, but they totally fit the songs).

And, if you want me to share my New Age station with you, let me know! ^_^

But I HATE Chocolate Ice Cream!

2011-11-02T20:54:00.004-05:00

So, why oh why, did I get this??

So there we were, at Baskin&Robbins, and I was talking with Brian as we're tasting sample after sample, and I see the name Toffee Pecan Crunch. I was too busy looking at anything past the sign (it was toward the front of the case), so I asked for a sample. Again, Brian's distracting me, and the lady pushes the little sample spoon toward me, I take it and am about to put it in my mouth when I see that this is ... chocolate ice cream. For a moment, I shudder. Because I HATE chocolate ice cream. Anything else chocolate I'm pretty game for, but not ice cream. To me, it tastes weird -- NOT like chocolate. So I avoid it like the plague.

But, in the moment, I figure, what the heck, it's just a tiny teaspoon, and the lady went to all the trouble to scoop it for me. No harm done, and I can move on to another flavor.

Except, in my mouth, there is this burst of ... pure, delicious decadence. OH.MY.GOSH! The "name" failed to add that there was caramel as well in this concoction. It was amazingly delicious!! My husband stared at me aghast, wondering WHO I was and WHAT I had done with Gabby. *LOL*

I, too, wondered the same thing!

And then, I proceeded to order two scoops in a waffle cone (as seen above). And it was so, so, so good!!!

So, now, I have to amend my statement: I highly dislike chocolate ice cream. ^_^ Will I be more willing in the future to try it again? Hmm... doubtful. Unless it's mixed with many of the things I loved in this. Toffee? Check. Nuts? Check. Caramel? Check.

Now YOU must go try it, because I know it's just a specialty flavor (not even on their web site)!

(And yes, since I took this picture, I have gone back and gotten more! Yummmm! ^_^)

As I Was Saying...

2011-11-01T20:45:00.000-05:00

Back in March, I mentioned how we had many changes coming our way.

Not only was I starting a new job, which I briefly commented on later, but I also had talked about how we were looking for/found a new place to live.

So, fast forward over 6 months, and with the brief interlude of Dralion as your only glimpse into my life, over the next 30 days I shall strive to catch you up, amuse and entertain you*, and ramble away.

My job has been going extremely well. So well, in fact, that for the few of you that don't know (which, btw, I'm impressed I got 5 comments on my last post, as here I was thinking that only 2 of you were still reading), I was actually offered a full-time position, AND my first official day was this past Monday (yep, Halloween).

So, I am now officially a Copy Editor for Neiman Marcus, working for their Last Call division. They're a great company to work for. My bosses and coworkers are really nice. Other people are friendly. And, I really just fit in from day one. This is probably the best place I've worked. Seriously. And, they paid me exactly what I asked for, which makes me wonder if I should have asked for more, or they totally think I'm worth it. *LOL* (And, no, sorry, I can't share the discount. Apparently it's a big no-no.)

I had also mentioned that Brian is now a Senior trainer at his job, and he's doing really well with that as well!

And, of course, we moved into our really nice apartment, that I'm still trying to finish getting decorated! (I'll post more about that at a later date.)

Lately, it's really been mostly work, chores, errands, work. But, that's okay. We're getting (somewhat) close to having our emergency fund in place, and then it's time to pay off some student loan stuff (Brian, not me), and then build a down payment for a house.

We are very blessed to have good, stable jobs that we enjoy and where our superiors know our value. I'd almost forgotten what that felt like.

So, does that mean I'll give up the freelance thing. No, but I just need to figure how to make it work with the job I have now.

And, again, there are some changes on the horizon -- some planned (of course, you HAVE to expect the unexpected), which I will be talking about on here. Some involve moving priorities around, others involve letting things go, and some involve getting back to things I've LET go and really miss.

And so, in that vein, I shall leave you with a teaser of something I want to get back to: it shall happen this Friday. Mwahaha! ^_-

Oh, and I have 30 days of blogging to do here, and goodness knows I might run out of topics before then, so if you have a question for me, or are dying to know something, or want my thoughts on something, then let me know, and I may use it as the jumping off point for a blog post. Because goodness knows I am NEVER lacking in my opinion of things. ^_^

And THAT's my first NaBloPoMo 2011 post -- how'd you like that?!

*I am in no way responsible for your level of amusement or entertainment. ^_^

Coming Soon to a Blog Near You: NaBloPoMo

2011-10-25T15:07:00.000-05:00

Just a quick little announcement for the 2 of you that still read my blog (heh), I will once again be doing NaBloPoMo this year! That's right! 30 days of blogging in November. I will tell you all about the awesome things going on in my life, musings, and other things. You know, maybe how my blog USED to be, back in the day, before trolls sent me packing to this little blogger blog (oh, how I miss nonchalant.nu -- but not the price). There are some people I know that actually have their blog updates hooked up to their FB feeds. I am a little too open/rambly at times to do such a thing. Plus, it'll let the trolls know where I am.

So, stay tuned. One week away!! ^_^

Dralion

2011-08-07T17:15:00.001-05:00

About a week and a half ago, Brian and I went to see

I have wanted to go see a Cirque du Soleil production for years and years, but the tickets were so expensive! So, I finally wised up and got on their mailing list, which not only lets you know when a production is coming to town, but also lets you buy tickets before others and usually at a discount. So, back in March, I got tickets (for a really good price for being on the 10th row) to this July's Dallas performance of Dralion.

Dralion is a melding of a Dragon and a Lion (sort of an East meets West thing, I think?), but also, this particular show was about man against or working with nature. So, of course, some of the main characters were the 4 elements.

However, there were also some hilarious clowns to entertain throughout the show (and they kept picking on an "audience member").

However, one of my favorite acts was this juggler.

Uhm, not only was he extremely athletic and talented (juggling a gazillion balls at a time), but he was also totally cute! *LOL* I know, I know, I'm such a dork. Okay, so maybe some of it's the makeup, so sue me. (No, really, without the makeup he's cute too!)

But, my favorite, favorite act was the ribbon dancers!

*dreamy sigh* They were just wonderful! The dance was so sensual, yet tasteful, beautiful, romantic, dreamy, athletic (again, I mean, come on, ALL of these people are athletic -- check out the muscles!). So pretty!

It's just amazing to me what the human body is capable of. There were some amazing athletes that could do crazy things with their bodies! It really left me with my mouth hanging open in awe and surprise a lot of the time. I will say the storyline was a little weak, but, I've heard that's a little common, and that Dralion's is especially loose, but that's okay. I definitely want to see another one!!

The only thing bad I have to say is that the arena was a little warm (and this particular arena is where local hockey games are played, so you KNOW they can keep it cold in there if they want to), and the seats were really uncomfortable. I should have brought a pillow. But, that's not Cirque's fault. *shrug*

Highly recommend it, if you've never been!

(Oh, and this was our late 5-year wedding anniversary gift to each other. ^_^ We then had dinner at IHop! *LOL* I know, so not romantic for 5 years, but we both had to rush home after work to go, and we didn't have time for dinner before, and nothing much was open after, so .... Still enjoyed it, though. ^_^)

Peeking In

2011-06-02T21:22:00.000-05:00

*peeks around the corner*

Hello? Anyone still reading???

Sorry I kinda disappeared there for awhile. Work takes up my previous online time, so I haven't had a chance to do much here. Not that I've done much that warrants blogging.

I'm still at the same job, which is cool. Still a cool place to be, and I really like it. I wish I had a little more to do, but I just asked for more, so we'll see what I get.

AND, remember my last post, about our next step being finding a place to live? Well, we found one! It's a brand new apartment complex, so we'll be the first ones in! It's about the same SIZE as this apartment, but laid out better, and the kitchen! I heart the kitchen! The only thing that it didn't have on my wish list was lots of natural light, but that's okay. Very few apartments have that. At least around here. But, it does have track lighting in the kitchen, as well as pendant lighting there. It's so pretty. And I'm excited!

We move next weekend, so I can't promise when I'll update again, but I promise to pick back a little more soon!

Laters!

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes

2011-03-18T10:31:00.000-05:00

So, I've been alluding to the fact that I felt this year would bring about change in my and Brian's life, and, already some of them are coming to pass! At least I know some of what's been hiding behind that bend in the road that I couldn't see.

Brian got a promotion at work, after working so hard, he finally has become a trainer. Not only that, a Senior Trainer! It's something he's very good at (and I've even heard he's a good teacher when he teaches at church -- I've never seen him teach, but I've heard it from many people, so I think I'll believe them ^_^). And, it's something he's fairly sure he wants to follow as a career path -- even going back to school to finish his degree by following that path (UNT nearby has an HR degree that has a lot of training involved in it), so hopefully that will be motivation to finish school.

And, as for me -- I got a job! I am working as an Editor for a high-end department store's clearance division (which, based on prices, is clearance only in that they're discounted, but I don't think I could afford some of their stuff! *LOL*) I've worked there for a week now, and even though I'd rather be home at times, ONLY because it's hard to be in a "work" mode after being home for 2 years, I'm enjoying it. But I have to say, sometimes it's night and day with some jobs, even though they're similar.

I remember one job, several years ago, where my first day, they just threw me in! They barely skimmed the surface of how their systems work, and how work came in, and I was expected to just go. Now, the proofreading/editing part is easy. But if I don't know how things work, it can be overwhelming. And it was so busy, it was hard to ask the other editor there how to do things (even though she was supposed to be training me). It was so bad, one of the graphic designers -- on one of my first days -- commented on how slow we proofreaders were being. Oh, yeah, she said that in front of me. *blink* I was upset. She later tried to apologize, but .... Needless to say, I only stayed there for about 2 weeks.

Then another job, where I was a "permanent temp" (whatever that means), never gave me access to the server. I was having to do jobs outside my job description (because they didn't have enough proofreading work for me), and in the end, treated me badly (as in, I got a call on a Sunday night by my agency that I wasn't wanted the next morning at work -- nor any mornings).

But at this new job, they treat me like an adult! It's amazing! I'm still a freelancer, but I can set my own schedule (because, if I don't work, I don't get paid), they have given me access to the server (what? it's amazing) so I can actually do my job. They trust me to do certain things (for now, getting it checked by the writer, to ensure I'm doing okay there) -- and I'm getting to use software that I was NEVER given access to in other places, like Photoshop, InDesign, and DreamWeaver. Stuff I've wanted to learn how to use in a job setting (I know Photoshop), and now I can use it and put it on my resume! They're nice, and friendly and patient -- and some are a little trendy. ^_^

Even though I'm exhausted, at least I was wise enough to take a day off. I have things to do around the house, and need to go shopping for some items for Brian, because Brian is leaving me for 5 weeks! He's going to go to training in another state, so I shall be alone starting soon. Sad! But, I'm not as sad because I know he's working on that career path, and he's finally doing what he's been wanting to do for awhile.

Next up is finding a new place to live. We're tired of the bugs, the enormous electric bill, the poor management, and the noisy and rude neighbors! We'll be wanting to stay somewhat close to the same area, but maybe with a little more easy access to a nearby highway to help me get to work a little more easily and quickly. We definitely want something newer (hopefully with double-paned windows!), even if it means more rent per month. It'll probably even out with rent plus utilities, and that's fine. I don't even care if it's a slightly smaller space. I just want to be out of here. We'd love to rent a house (even a duplex, or something like it), but we'll see. Around here, it's either overpriced or rundown, so those in between are a little more hard to come by.

So, there ya go! Changes. What's next??? Hmmmm..... ^_^

Day 30 - A Picture

2011-03-02T23:59:00.000-06:00

I chose this picture -- taken last year for my Project 365 -- because I like the mystery it holds, the possibilities, the intrigue. It makes you wonder what might be around the corner. Is it scary, or exciting, or something in between. Kind of what I feel this year will be like, with changes. Something's coming, but ... what?

Day 29 - 3 Wishes

2011-03-01T12:07:00.000-06:00

I wish that ...

Brian will get the new position he applied for at work;

my cats will live long, happy and healthy lives; and

one day, we won't have to worry too much about money.

Day 28 - Something That Stresses Me Out

2011-02-28T22:11:00.001-06:00

I get stressed when I have to give up control and have to trust others to do what's been asked. A recent example is when I ask people to perform musical numbers in church. I can ask, and they agree. And I have to let them arrange for a pianist, practice times, etc. If I tried to control all aspects, I would go insane, but I have to be able to give them the opportunity to learn and grow, especially those that aren't used to performing. Yet it still stresses me out, hoping that they've done what needs to be done. And I get especially stressed when I have several of these going on for big occasions like Easter and Christmas.

And yes, things usually turn out okay in the end, but it still stresses me out. ^_^

Day 27 - Pets

2011-02-27T20:56:00.000-06:00

As you know, I currently have two cats. They are both Siamese, and they are brother and sister. Yuki is the female, and Yanni is the male.

I found them on Petfinder.com, and they were exactly what I was looking for -- they were rescues, kittens, Siamese and siblings. Sadly, I missed most of their kittenhood, because they were still quite feral when we got them and so we had to work with them a lot. But, I was told that they might never be lap kitties, or that affectionate.

But thankfully, even though it took awhile, both cats are VERY affectionate in their own way. Yuki isn't a lap kitty, but she likes to sleep with me in bed. She's also incredibly sweet.

Yanni is a lap kitty, and he's extremely vocal, and he has the biggest personality.

They bring so much joy to our lives, and I hope I have them for many years to come.

Here is a favorite picture of each of them (you may have seen these already):

Yuki

Yanni

Day 26 - Picture of My Family

2011-02-26T08:41:00.000-06:00

Since I don't have kids, I guess I still think of "my family" as my parents and brothers and sister. However, I have also come to think of it as including my nieces and nephews. So, here is the most recent picture of us all together.

This was actually taken over 2 years ago, and the only person missing is my brother Michael (the one who has chosen to have nothing to do with us).

Day 25 - Put iPod on Shuffle, First 10 Songs

2011-02-25T12:15:00.000-06:00

I'm having to use my iPod Shuffle, because I don't have that many songs on my iPhone yet. ^_^

1. "Hope Has a Place" by Enya
2. "World Gone Crazy" by SLEEPTHIEF*
3. "Sublunar (Sweet Angel)" by SLEEPTHIEF
4. "Catch You Catch Me" by Gumi (on the Cardcaptor Sakura soundtrack)
5. "The Tide Is High" by Blondie
6. "Love Fool" by The Cardigans
7. "Rainy World" by SLEEPTHIEF
8. "Smell of Desire" by ENIGMA
9. "Playstation (My Console)" by Eiffel 65
10. "Penelope's Song" by Loreena McKennitt

* Out of this set, this is probably one of my favorite songs right now. The music video is a little strange, but I love SLEEPTHIEF's music (as you can see, it came up often, even though I only have two albums and some remixes).

As you can see, my taste in music varies, although a lot of "New Age" music came up in the shuffle, which is interesting. I would say that's probably my favorite genre of music, but it's sort of a catch all that does contain the artists some would consider New Age, as well as Celtic music, and Electronica, as well as others.

Did you listen to any of these, and what did you think?

Day 24 - Something I've Learned

2011-02-24T12:29:00.000-06:00

I've learned the art of digital scrapbooking. I would even like to say that I'm good at it, though I think I'm still finding my style, as I like to try different things. I think that's validated by having been asked to be on the design team for PeppermintCreative.com. I picked up many scrapbook things over the years, but never really did anything with it, and then discovered digital. I fell in love. It's a great creative outlet, and also a way to preserve memories.

You can see a progression of my abilities, with some before and afters.

Digital Scrapbooking

THEN: This was done in June 2007, one of my first layouts (LOs) after I discovered this craft.

NOW: This is one of my most recent LOs, and I chose the earlier one because it and this one have a similar subject matter -- my cats!

Hybrid Crafts

(the use of digital and traditional scrapbooking items)

THEN: One of the first hybrid things I did, a birthday card.

NOW: Apples and oranges from this and the "then" craft, but I'm now willing to step out of the box and do other things besides cards (which I still love to do).

So, this is ONE thing I've learned out of the many, many, many things I've learned in my 35 years on this earth. How about you?

Day 23 - Favorite Vacation

2011-02-23T12:03:00.000-06:00

I'll admit, I haven't taken too many vacations over the last years, but I have taken some great ones. It's hard to kind of just pick one. Honestly.

I already mentioned New York City. I've also been to the Florida Keys, where I visited Hemingway's House, swam with the dolphins, and went deep sea fishing (not to mention the many moments in between). I've been to Disney (Land and World) several times each (the most recent to MGM Studios, which I think they renamed, back in 2005 for Christmas Eve). I've been to California for Spring Break (mentioned that here before, as well).

But, I guess I shall have to say my favorite vacation was our honeymoon to Hawaii (to the Big Island). I had been wanting to go for as long as I can remember, and Brian's father and stepmother were so generous to provide that trip for us.

We had so much fun, so many memories, and it was just a great, magical trip.

Besides, not much can compete with the view we had from our lanai:

Love! ^_^

We would love to go back one day. But, there are so many other places I'd love to go to. We'll see. ^_^

Day 22 - Favorite City

2011-02-22T22:16:00.000-06:00

New York City.

There's just something about it. Whether it's the diversity of the people, or how crammed in everything is, or how cultural it is, it is my favorite city. Now, I'll be honest, I've only been twice, and sadly, both times during the summer. One day, I'd love to go during the fall, or maybe around Christmas time.

The first time I went was after I graduated high school. It was a school-sponsored trip (through the theater department), and a graduation gift from my parents. We did and saw so many things. I have so many funny and fond memories. It was a great time.

I was lucky enough to go the second time, again not on my dime, but for work, for my first real job after graduating college. I was sent there for a week for training. What I loved best is that my flight got there very early on a Sunday, so I had a day to kind of explore (I hit the Met), and then the evenings during the week were mine. Do you know what most of the people in my training class did? Go out to bars. Really? REALLY. A bar. I mean, you can go to a bar at home. So, instead, most nights I went by myself to dinner and to see a Broadway show. I would invite my fellow trainees, but they would pass. That's fine. They didn't get to sit only a few rows back watching Bernadette Peters as Annie Oakley in Annie Get Your Gun, along with Tom Wopat. Their loss. Or sit first row mezzanine, right in the middle, getting goosebumps as I was dazzled by The Lion King. My win!

I agree, I mostly love it for the theater, but there's so much more. There's a feeling, a vibrancy, a uniqueness that's all its own.

I <3 NYC.

Day 21 - Picture of Me

2011-02-21T12:00:00.001-06:00

Since the first post of the 30 days had me include a recent picture, I decided that today's picture of me would be a fun one from the past. This was taken on September 24, 2004, at the Texas State Fair. I went that day on a bureau outing with my coworkers, and they saw this face-painting booth and they dared me to get my face painted. Hello! This is totally my thing! Sure, I was the tallest person in line by about 2-3 feet, but I had a blast. The French Canadian girls that were doing the makeup were really good, even working around my glasses. I also like how they incorporated my favorite color with the color I was wearing. Meow! =^_^=

Day 20 - Nicknames

2011-02-20T14:59:00.000-06:00

Well, I guess it's easy to say that "Gabby" is one of my nicknames.

Frankly, I prefer it over my real name only because my real name is hard to pronounce for most English-speaking people. ^_^

However, I do get "Miss Gabby" a lot. Even from people I barely know. It's funny.

Others I have had are Gab, Gabs and Gabbers. I will tell you that I really dislike when people I hardly know call me Gab or Gabs. I already have a nickname, and you feel the need to shorten it even more?? Only people I know well can do that.

The only other one I have, that's from my family, but isn't used often anymore, is "Beets." My older brother Michael used to call me "Gabeets" all the time. I honestly don't know why. A cute form of Gabby? Anyway, my mom took it and shortened it even more to Beets. Okay, really, I don't know if that's the way one would spell it, but ... there ya go. I don't think I've heard her use it in a long time. Oh, and a lot of my family (and other Hispanics) usually pronounce my nickname as "GAHvee" instead of the more American "Ga-be" if that makes sense.

What about YOUR nicknames?

Day 19 - Something I Miss

2011-02-19T23:45:00.006-06:00

I miss the carefree life I had when I was a child in Costa Rica.

Oh, I know that all children have a certain perspective in life, but where I lived and the things I experienced were so awesome. Truly. I had a great childhood, and perhaps not as many people can say that as others.

I would love to live there again one day, and perhaps give my children a chance to know this life. But, I know it's changed. I haven't been back in years. But, either way, I like the simplicity that the life afforded, and I would like to have that again some day.

Day 18 - Something I Regret

2011-02-18T16:22:00.000-06:00

Whoo-boy! I do have quite a few regrets, but overall, I think those silly, stupid things I did when I was younger helped me become the person I am today. And, I know I will continue to do stupid things, and hopefully learn from those as well.

But, as soon as I knew this was coming up, one regret came to mind. And it actually has to do with a person.

Many, many years ago I became friends with a really cool guy from church, Jade. We actually clicked as friends immediately, and we hung out a lot. So much so, that people thought he and I were dating! But no, we weren't. We actually had this conversation where we discussed how much we loved each other and how cool we thought the other person was, but were in no way attracted to each other. I remember we were having dinner at Outback Steakhouse while having this conversation. *LOL* He actually had one really good girl friend that he hung out with a lot as well, that I actually think she liked him and while not necessarily jealous of me, I think maybe she didn't like that he and I hung out so much.

Jade was an artist, a musician, a free spirit, a little bit of what some would think an oddball -- definitely not one to fit any mold I ever knew of. He was cool, and funny, intelligent, had such a sweet spirit and really got people. He had a great ability to ferret out what someone was thinking or feeling and be able to help them.

I remember once, I'd had some really bad news (about my father) and was struggling with it, and struggled through church, went home, and decided I really needed someone to talk to. You'd think I would have gone to my best friend's, but no, I went to his place (which he shared with roomies). I think that was the first and last time I have ever gone over to somebody's house unannounced (I usually at least call). He welcomed me in with open arms, and then I saw that this girl that I mentioned before was there -- they were cooking dinner. He had me sit on the couch while they finished making dinner, and then he and I could talk, he said. I was so emotionally exhausted that I fell asleep on the couch. (And, if you know me, I HAD to be tired, because I can barely fall asleep in a different bed, let alone someone else's couch.) He was such a good friend.

I had introduced him to Jennifer, and we all three hung out a lot more. She really liked him, and we had so much fun together. Unfortunately, Jade had to move back to Idaho to be with his mom (long story), and I was so sad to see him go. We kept up some through e-mail -- he wasn't the best e-mailer -- and sometimes on the phone (I didn't have a cell phone then, and long distance could be expensive).

Sometime later, maybe about a year, or so, he was coming back for a visit, and of course Jenn and I had him stay at our place. But something had changed.

Things seemed awkward and not quite right. Our conversations were a little too forced, or not quite as they had been before. And, yes, most of the time it was all three of us together. But, for some reason, we didn't address it. Was it because we didn't acknowledge it? Because he didn't see it? Because Jennifer was there?

After he left, Jennifer said that he had changed, that he wasn't the same person, and I agreed at the time. Jade and I didn't really talk after that.

And my regret is that I let that friendship go. Because I think I realize what happened so many years ago. While Jennifer was correct, I think, in saying that he had changed and that he wasn't the same, we both approached it as a bad thing. But the truth is, I think he had probably changed for the better. We hadn't talked about what had been going on with his mom, but I think it somewhat softened that free spirit of his, to make him realize what was truly important. I think he had grown more spiritual and in touch with a deeper connection to God and himself, and I (and I won't say Jennifer, because she did not share our beliefs) wasn't in THAT place at the time. I was just sort of floating through life, having fun and not really trying to really dig into those things that I believe now (that is also a very long story that only Brian knows most about, besides Jennifer, who passed away almost a year ago).

And I think that he didn't know how to tell me that Jennifer wasn't the best influence on me, how I could strive for the best things in my life and not come down to a baser level. I think he had new dreams and aspirations to share with me, and I wasn't receptive.

Oh, I know with him moving away our friendship wouldn't have been exactly the same, but this weird breaking off, I mostly fault myself for it. For not being able to see, to be aware, to understand what he needed then.

I found him on Facebook and sent him a Friend request with an apologetic note attached, but he never responded. Whether it wasn't the right person, or he doesn't really get on FB, or worse, he didn't want to have anything to do with me, well, I can understand that.

That is something I regret.

I am sorry, Jade. I truly am.

Day 17 - Something I'm Looking Forward To

2011-02-17T17:51:00.000-06:00

I'm looking forward to Brian's birthday at the end of this month. He will be 29! Crazy!

We don't really do much to celebrate Valentine's Day, mostly because it's not a huge deal, really -- we share our love with each other every day in many ways -- and because we'd rather take that money and time and do something nice/fun for Brian's birthday.

I have thought about having people over for a Saturday birthday brunch (as his birthday falls on a Saturday, and we love breakfast foods, and, that way people can still come celebrate, but have the rest of the day to do errands and go other places), but Brian hasn't decided if that's something he'd like. Either way, we are going to go to dinner that evening, although he has yet to tell me what he'd like or where he would like to go. That's okay. It's his day and he can do what he wants. ^_^

Day 16 - Dream House

2011-02-16T17:34:00.000-06:00

Many years ago, I was looking through a magazine of house plans and architecture (I honestly can't remember why, though I remember where I was), and I came across my dream house -- well, almost my dream house. It needed a few tweaks to make it perfect.

Sadly, I didn't keep the page or make a scan, or anything! Argh!

What I loved about this house plan is that it had a music room. Yes, a room completely devoted to music. I envisioned that my friends who play instruments (I have many) would be coaxed into giving small, intimate concerts in my home.

But, let me describe what it looks like (I briefly considered drawing it, but decided it wouldn't even come close to doing it justice).

A two-story house, that, of course, would have to sit on some land (I'm not picky, I'd be happy with an acre or two), and it would have lovely landscaping, and a circular driveway (a must!) in front. It has a double-entry front door -- seems classy and elegant to me, and, of course, easier to fit furniture in (how else will the grand piano get into my music room??? ^_-). To the left of the entry is a wrap-around porch that will have the ability to pull down screening at need (you'll see why in a moment). Immediately visible on the right side of the home, will be a (modernized and stylized) turret (more on that later).

As you enter a grand foyer (with a gallery of sorts running on each wall), with a large, lovely staircase, to the left you will see ... the music room, of course! Instead of windows, this room has several French doors that open onto the wrap-around porch. Imagine sitting out there on the (now-screened-in porch), on a cooling summer evening, enjoying the chamber music that I have gathered in my home. Lovely, isn't it? Mmmm.... (I used to want the music room floor to be an alternating black and white tile, but ... I may rethink that one day. ^_-)

To the right of the foyer is the formal living (or sitting) room. Beyond that, there are French doors that lead into the ... (wait, wait, can you guess???) two-story study/library which is in the turret (ah-hah!). BTW, this library is also accessible from the second floor (oh, and from a hallway on the first floor). Swoon!

I think, if I remember correctly, that hallway also leads to the Master Bedroom on the other side of the turret. I think. (One flaw you will see with my telling of this lovely house, is I haven't paid much attention to the bedrooms. ^_^)

In the back of the house on the first floor (to the left), is a lovely, large kitchen, with a large space for dining (sort of in the middle). I kind of prefer large dining areas near kitchens, because people tend to congregate in the kitchen anyway (I maybe could change my mind on this, but ....). Imagine a huge farmhouse table, with squishy dining chairs around it? Love! And then, on the right, a large family room. (Oh, and I guess there needs to be a mud/laundry room around there too! ^_^)

Now, I have to mention that in this plan, the garage is somewhat detached, but to the left of the house. It is connected to the main house by a second story hallway. Because, you see, on top of the garage is the media room (see the genius in this? You can crank up a movie's volume and not bother the house). The hallway from the media room (lined by windows, BTW) leads to the house's large game room upstairs.

Then, there are sundry bedrooms and bathrooms on the second floor. (Again, I could move the Master up, who knows.)

In the back yard of the house would be a pool (duh!), and, maybe some sort of multi-purpose court of some kind (not really my thing, but it's a maybe). Oh, and definitely some sort of gazebo, and a garden, and large trees.

Now, I will have you know, that these plans did mention how much this house would cost to build (based on an average). Without land, without tweaks, without the lovely garden and decor and furniture, this house, many, many years ago, would have cost $425,000 to build.

Uh, yeah.

Now do you see why it's my dream house?

Day 15 - Bible Verse

2011-02-15T18:34:00.000-06:00

Job 19:25
For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth.

Took me a little while to think of one, but this sums up a lot of what I believe. And I would also like to think that, while I may not ever have to endure trials like Job's, I will still have faith regardless of what I myself have to endure. If Job could do it, I certainly can.

Day 14 - A Picture I Love

2011-02-14T19:38:00.000-06:00

Happy Valentine's Day! I love that this post which was from a list that was randomly created (not by me), has SOMETHING to do with love.

This is a picture I love:

This is Brian and his Great-Grandma Osborne. Yes, it's another picture from our wedding day, but there were just so many great pictures from it! ^_^ It's just an amazing picture of both of them, and even though his great-grandma was out of it a lot, she was still a sweet lady and understood that she was at a wedding -- even if she didn't remember it was for family. I also love the blue of her dress.

One of the other reasons I love this picture is because it was one of the last ones taken with Brian and his great-grandma. She passed away in 2009.

Day 13 - Goals

2011-02-13T16:25:00.000-06:00

There are a few goals I am working on, and one sort of ties into another one.

First, something which I began last year and will continue into this year, is that I want to be more organized AND have been organized. This past weekend we reorganized our master bedroom closet, as it had gotten out of hand. Put a lot of clothes and shoes into a donate pile, weeded out things that had crept into the space (haircare, beauty products, etc. that have somewhere else to be). Several weeks ago, we tackled the entryway closet, making sure the cat toys were organized, as well as coats and sweaters. I even got out an unused over-the-door shoe organizer and used that to put scarves and gloves, etc. (I had not used that one for shoes.)

Overall, we're doing pretty good in this area. The biggest project to tackle will be our office closet (used to be a guest bedroom). It's a scary place. It's not that it's that messy. I mean, I can get in, it's just that it has such a hodge podge of items that really need to be sorted through and rearranged (like the "costume" part of the closet. Most of those costumes I will not be wearing again.)

However, what I like is that things have a place. If I use it, I know where it belongs. I still have a few of the "I don't know where to put this, so I'll just put it here" but that's okay. Rome wasn't built in a day. ^_-

Second, is being more aware of our finances, as to where our money's going and how to better partition it into several different accounts. (I think I have mentioned this briefly.) I decided that while my family is fairly frugal at Christmas with gifts, Brian's family tends to be a little more into the actual gift giving, and I do feel bad when we usually don't have much money to spend. So, I thought that it would be nice to have a Christmas Fund, where a little money gets put into it every month until Christmas. It's not much, but that way we can have that money to use for gifts and for extra holiday things (like baking and food) without deviating from our standard monthly budget. I know a lot of people do this, and it really IS a good idea.

And third, for now, which is tied to the second, is that I am saving for my Masquerade Ball. As with the Christmas Fund, a little is getting put aside each month. For now, it will be a small amount, as I have about 5 years to reach my goal. But, I am finally doing something about it, instead of just constantly talking about it, and that makes me smile!

How about you? Do YOU have any interesting goals?

Day 12 - What I Believe

2011-02-12T22:34:00.000-06:00

What one believes is probably a long, all-encompassing sort of conversation, which is played out over one's lifetime, with changes as we transition from childhood to adulthood, from hope, to faith, to knowledge in a variety of things. We are ever-learning beings, armed with many truths, but confronted by many more things that one will never be ever to know for certain.

But, this is a small part of what I believe, in regards to those things I hold most dear, most spiritual and often tied to religious beliefs.

I know that we are children of God. That He is the literal Father of our spirits. I know that He loves us far more than we will ever be able to comprehend. I have had experiences that have shown me small glimpses into that love. I know that He loves us so much that He gave us the complete ability to choose. Because of those choices that we all have, sometimes we must suffer -- many times because of our own doing, and many more times because of what others have chosen.

I know that the only one who truly understands our suffering -- every bit of it -- is my elder (spiritual) brother, Jesus Christ, who is my Savior. Even if I cannot fathom how that's possible.

I have always believed that our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are real personages, and that we are created in our Father's image. I have never doubted, never questioned their existence. I believe that that is one of the spiritual gifts that I was given. And I feel blessed for that.

I believe that this world, and this life, that was created for us, was ultimately for our joy and happiness -- into the eternities. That this mortal trial that we experience, although it seems quite long and painful for many, is but a short time in the grand scheme. That I will live forever, with loved ones around me, hopefully in the presence of God, as I know that we are His heirs and can inherit all that He has to give us, even to become like Him.

I do not believe in original sin, and know that everyone has the ability to choose good.

I know that I am flawed, yet I truly wonder how I can be so blessed when so many others who are good suffer so much. Yet, I know I will probably be held more accountable, and I know that while I can strive to be perfect, I will never be so. All my Father asks is that I do my best until the end.

I know that no matter the hardships and different personalities, I love my family, and that we will all be together after this life. I am grateful for those things that I know and have partaken in, that will give me a chance for this. But I am also grateful that I know that ALL will have a chance for this, whether in this life, or the next.

I know that things happen for a reason, as cliched as that sounds. Whether we are to learn from it, or to have others learn from it, and everything in between, we came here to experience life -- we asked for this, even if we don't remember it. And while I know that God won't give us more than we can handle, He gave us those people around us -- family, friends, sometimes even strangers -- to help us.

I believe in the power of prayer, and faith. I have seen them work small and sometimes larger miracles (one of those is a very personal story).

I also, as I have gotten older, tried to believe in people. Sometimes I fail at this, but we were commanded to "love one another" and I think it's because not only is it the right thing to do, but as Mother Teresa said, "If you judge people, you have no time to love them."

I believe in the beauty all around us, that so many miss. I believe in the power of good music, that can also be a prayer unto my Heavenly Father. I admire the wonder of nature, even when it means I'm stuck at home because I can't go out on the dangerous icy/snowy roads. ^_-

I know that there is a path my life is to take, although that can be determined by my choices. I know that good things come to those who wait, even if it will take much longer than we wish it would.

I believe that true science and true religion will explain the other one day, but whether we will see it in this lifetime, who can say?

***

Truthfully, I could sit here for hours and tell you all the things I believe. There are many I believe right now, but may change as I learn, study, grow. But these things I put here, are my intrinsic, core beliefs. Maybe not all of them, but I know for the most part, these won't change. Well, if they do, I can only hope for the better.

But I do want you to know this: I know many of these things because I have thought them through. I have also prayed to know if others are true. And some, as I mentioned, I have been blessed to always hold as a truth in my heart.

This is as open and close to my heart as I have laid out on this (or my past) blog. It's not something I usually share because I don't wish to make others uncomfortable. But, what I have shared today makes my heart warm, and soft tears of happiness come to my eyes, to know that this is me, at least a part. And I hope that you will not mind my sharing some of my beliefs.

Thank you.

Day 11 - Favorite TV Shows

2011-02-11T09:45:00.001-06:00

Well, way down on my sidebar I have a list of current favorite TV shows, and then a list of all-time favorite TV shows. However, it doesn't say WHY they're my favorite, so here goes.

All-Time Favorite:

Alias -- The first episode was huge and totally hooked me in. Hot spy girl wearing red wig that was actually just kind of a nerdy graduate student at heart? Hello! (Jennifer Garner was also my girl crush for awhile. ^_-)

Buffy the Vampire Slayer -- Angsty vampire slayer that falls in love with hot vampire? How could you not like it? I think there were some seasons that I didn't much care for, but that was okay. My favorite episode was the musical.

Stargate SG-1 -- Overall this series was cheesy and campy, but knew it, making fun of itself and many other scifi shows. I laugh so many times at the in-jokes and storylines with different alien cultures are pretty interesting. And, I heart, heart Daniel Jackson (played by Michael Shanks) -- nerdy guys can be HOT.

The X-Files -- I remember one night, being home alone and watching one of my first episodes of The X-Files, while eating dinner. It was the episode where a guy likes to go out with heavy girls because he sucks their fat out. I vowed then I would never watch the show while eating again. *LOL* A truly unique show with interesting characters, but a kinda screwy overall plot. That's okay. It was a fun ride!

Current Favorite:
What classifies as a current favorite? I watch many shows, but if I set a DVR for it, and get upset if something cuts it off, then it's a fave.

America's Next Top Model -- My guilty pleasure. I really only like it because of the cool fashion, shoots, costumes and makeup they do. Really!

Ghost Hunters -- Lately it has been boring me because they haven't found anything really interesting, but when they do, wow, it makes one wonder what is going on!

Glee -- Makes me want to go back to high school just so I could be in a Glee Club (okay, maybe not high school, but I heard a local university has one, and would consider going back to school for that -- really!). Sometimes I think the storylines are a little out there, but, hey, when they break out into costume and song, I love it!

The Amazing Race -- I would love one day to be able to do this, but Brian and I are in no physical shape to be able to do it! *LOL* It's true. That, and neither of us can drive a stick shift. I love the people doing this amazing thing together, although I do wonder at some of the couples on the show (especially the ones dating) -- they can be nasty to each other one minute, and then the next be all lovey. Whatever. Doesn't work that way.

The Big Bang Theory -- Shows that nerds are cool AND funny. This show really makes me laugh. And the characters are so funny.

The Suze Orman Show -- Probably something you didn't think would make this list, but truthfully, I love her financial advice, and how she doesn't sugarcoat things. My favorite advice from her recently is how she's telling people to re-evaluate their American Dream. Most people think that owning a home is IT, but look at the mess we got into with people buying homes they couldn't afford. She says that the American Dream should now be to live in a place you can afford and it isn't a financial burden -- whether it's a rental or a house, it has to be something you can afford. (She says, if you don't have a 6- to 8-month emergency fund IN addition to 20% down, then either forget it, or keep saving.) It has made me feel better about the fact that several years ago we lost out on a home (we had 20% down, but no other savings), and how it may be awhile before we do own. But, it's okay. I'd rather be somewhere I know I can afford, than worry about how to pay for something because it's about to break.

So, there you have it. What do you think? What about your favorite shows?

Day 10 - Something I'm Afraid Of

2011-02-10T12:42:00.000-06:00

I'm having a hard time with this one, only because I don't really know what I'm afraid of. I mean, I get worried about things, but really afraid? I don't know.

I guess I could be silly and say something like "I'm afraid of roaches." Which I really wonder, if it's just that I'm disgusted by them, and not afraid.

I'm afraid of not being able to breathe on my own -- which is why going SCUBA diving seems like something uncomfortable to do; or being on a submarine only able to escape one way. (But, let's face it, how often will I be in a submarine?)

I could also say I'm afraid of not having enough money to live life on -- I see so many people around me that suffer because they didn't plan well, or they tried, but failed.

Anyway, I dunno. Pick one. *shrug*

Day 9 - A Picture of My Friends

2011-02-09T18:43:00.003-06:00

Well, this is a toughie. To begin with, I don't have a lot of really good friends -- the kind that you're always around and take silly pictures and tell everyone to gather around and snap a pic of the group and you remember the good times.

I have pictures of me with friends through the years, but not ONE picture with all of them.

I do have a lot in storage somewhere (hard copies), of the many friends I've had over the years, but one that came to mind was this one, that a friend posted on FB. This just came to my mind quickly, and it has more than just ME and one other person. (This by no means indicate a lack of current friends, just of pictures of them! *LOL*)

This is Emily, Christie, me and Laura, at Emily's parent's house in California. We were all mostly roommates (Christie wasn't, but she was at our house all the time) in Texas, and Em had us over for Spring Break that year (gosh, when was that? 2001?). We had SO much fun! This is one of our first nights there, I think. Maybe THE first night there. We were going to a dance, and it happened to be St. Patrick's Day, so we all stuck clovers in our hair. That was SUCH a fun week!

Day 8 - A Place I've Taveled To

2011-02-08T11:25:00.000-06:00

(Manda, I totally agree about the bad grammar on this title provided by the blog challenge!)

Does it count that I've been BACK to Costa Rica since I lived there??? *LOL* Of course, I've also lived in Honduras, so I guess that doesn't count as travel either. (Although, we did take a vacation to one of its islands, called Roatán.)

So, while I wish I could claim more exotic travels, I shall have to say that I have been to Hawaii, namely the Big Island. Brian and I went there for our honeymoon 4 1/2 years ago. We stayed in Kona and just had a great time and some fun adventures. It really is a beautiful place, although I will have to say it's a tad humid. Okay, more than a tad.

We went swimming and snorkeling. We did some sightseeing and enjoyed fresh fish and produce. We visited quaint little shops (and some not-so-quaint, like this amazing art gallery that we seriously wanted to plunk down a couple thousand dollars on a magical tropical painting, but didn't have the money). We hit the Volcano park, and even were crazy enough to drive around the entire island. Yep, yep!

I would love to go back and visit some of the other islands, one day. But then, I'd love to go to Europe some day, and back to Costa Rica, etc. I think it's sad that my globe-trotting life all happened before I was 12. *LOL* Well, mostly. Ah, well.

Day 7 - Favorite Movies

2011-02-07T12:28:00.000-06:00

You may question my taste, my sanity, or my age, but truthfully, Disney's The Little Mermaid is my favorite movie. I was 14 when I saw it in the movie theater when it first came out. It was beautiful, magical, heartwarming, cute, funny, and the music! Oh the music! The detail in the animation along with the amazing music by Alan Menken and Howard Ashman brought Disney's golden age in animation back with a force! (Sadly, Ashman died a few years later, and while he contributed some to Beauty and the Beast and Aladdin, it wasn't whole and complete. Imagine if they were still collaborating today?!)

I have two copies on DVD. The original one that came out years and years ago, and the platinum edition that came out a few years back. You bet I'm waiting for the Blu-Ray to come out! ^_^

So many people criticized the character of Ariel, doing all this for a man, but I look at it more as her being someone that wanted more out of her life, and she did what it took to get there (even though some of her choices may have been questionable, but she had to deal with some consequences, so it wasn't all happy). Anyway, I think from the moment I stepped out of the theater, it had captured my heart. Luckily this theater was in a mall, so after leaving the movie, I went upstairs to the music store and bought the tape of the soundtrack. Yep. The tape! *LOL* Some years later I bought the CD. When watching, I talk along and sing along. I actually do a pretty good imitation of Ariel (and her singing). ^_^

It makes me happy! (AND, I was so wanting to go to the musical version in NY, but they closed it recently. SO, now I'm waiting for the touring company!)

So, there ya go!

Day 6 - A Picture of Something That Makes Me Happy

2011-02-06T16:57:00.000-06:00

My "kids" make me happy!

I actually took these Saturday morning. It is VERY rare for them to be even this close together anymore (Yanni -- on the right -- is a bully and Yuki steers clear of him for the most part). But they were all snuggled on our bed, trying to keep warm, and I couldn't resist getting these. I had to, you would almost have to say. ^_^

They bring so much joy to our lives. Last week, we had a scare with Yanni. He got really sick. What really scared me is that this funny cat with so much personality had seemed to lose it all. He wasn't the cat I knew. However, he is on the mend and is back to his crazy ways. It warms my heart. ^_^ And Yuki, on the left, is such a sweet, sweet kitty. I wish Yanni wouldn't bully her!

Day 5 - My Siblings

2011-02-05T10:03:00.000-06:00

Noel, my dad, Danny, me and Brian, Michael, my mom, and Nydia

This is all of my family on my wedding day. I posted yesterday about my parents, and today I talk about my siblings.

I know I used a wedding photo yesterday, but there's a reason for this one: this is the last picture I have of all of my immediate family together (will explain why shortly).

Nydia: Is the oldest at 45 (or 46, can't remember). She has mental disabilities and still lives with my parents -- and probably always will. Upon meeting her, you would probably not think she was this way, but she is. When I lived at home, I did NOT get along with her. It's still tough at times, but since I'm older, I try to be a little more sympathetic with her mood swings and odd thoughts. She loves me dearly (as I'm her only sister).

Noel: Is the oldest boy at 44 (or so). He's the father of my niece, Amanda, who just got married. He's definitely the older brother, always trying to give sage advice. He's also extremely funny. My mother tells me that when I was a baby, he was the only one that could get me to go to sleep, so she would hand me off to him. Sweet, eh? I adore his kids! And his wife's pretty nice, too. ^_^

Michael: Ah, my older brother by 4 years. Remember when I mentioned that this is the last picture of all of us together? That's because, about 4 years ago, Michael decided to estrange himself from us. We all wish we knew what happened. There was no family fight or drama. No one said or did anything directly (whether he took something we said wrong, that's a whole other issues and we can't control that). He is the self proclaimed black sheep of the family. He's also a genius (yes, his IQ proves that). Out of all my siblings, he and I used to get into the biggest fights. Not just shouting matches, but physical fights, as well. It didn't help that he is a black belt in karate. Yeah. However, as we got older, he introduced me to the fantasy genre, and would talk a lot about our favorite books. (And, even in college, when he would come home, he would never be above taking his little sis to the mall or to a movie.) Some people think he's into alcohol and/or drugs. I couldn't tell you. We miss him. We try to stay in touch. But, it's very one-sided.

Danny: My little brother and the baby of the family. Growing up, Danny was my partner in crime (and sometimes we were partners with Michael in his hare-brained shenanigans!), and since we're just 2 years apart, we were pretty close for a long time. Danny had a hard time speaking when he was little, so I was his translator. He would babble to my mom and she would ask ME what he said and I would tell her. Such a funny story! He and I were at many of the same schools at the same time and he had many of my teachers -- hah! Of course, now we're grown up and he is married and has a family, but every once in awhile, we can still talk about video games or some Sci-Fi show we both watch.

So, those are my brothers and sister!

Day 4 - My Parents

2011-02-04T14:15:00.000-06:00

My dad (Manuel), me, and my mom (Ella Mae).

These are my parents and I on my Wedding Day (this is probably the most recent picture I have of both of them where my dad is looking his best).

My dad's name is Manuel, and my mom's name is Ella Mae (yes, it's all her first name, and yes, it's two words). They're both in their 70s and they've been married 40-some-odd years (I forget exactly, but they're not too too far away from 50).

Sadly, my dad's health has really declined in the last 10 years or so, and most in the last 5-7. He has diabetes, is legally blind, and is on dialysis several times a week. My dad has had a lot of different jobs over the years, the biggest being a manager of a rice and cattle farm in Costa Rica for 18 years. The most recent was as a nursing home administrator (though it's been a few years for that). When he was young, he went to SMU on a full scholarship and graduated in 3 1/2 years (which is why all the kids in my family that could have gotten degrees). I could go on and on about the interesting person that he is, but I don't want this blog post to be so long! ^_^ But, I will say, my dad is a very, very spiritual person. He has had some important positions in our church and is very well respected by many in the church. And out.

I don't have a lot in common with my dad, but I still love him nonetheless. And, cool fact: my dad actually got to marry me and Brian. ^_^

Now, my mom -- she's a saint! I'll tell you why in a moment, but I will say that I am very much like her. When I still lived at home, people would get us confused on the phone. We have many similar mannerisms and say things in a similar way. We also have a similar sense of humor. She sews and plays the piano and she loves cats. She also loves to read (though she hasn't done it as much lately).

Now I will tell you why she's a saint. Not only does my mom still work part time as a physical therapist (which, btw, after we came back to the states, she had to go back to work and got her license again -- after being out of that world for almost 20 years!), but she takes care of my dad. She takes him to his appointments (medical and other) and basically has to do a lot for him since he's almost blind. She has to completely devote her time to him and very rarely gets away. (The last time she had a vacation was probably about 5 years ago, when we all went to Orlando to visit and have Christmas with my oldest brother who was working there at the time. Since then Dad's gone downhill.) But wait, there's more. I have a mentally disabled sister, who is in her 40s, and has lived all her life with my parents. She's mostly a functioning individual, and if you met her briefly, you might think she's almost normal, but, unfortunately, she's not. So, my mom has to take care of her somewhat as well (thankfully, nothing medical yet). So, my mom is a wife, homemaker, breadwinner, caregiver, chauffeur, mother with one that will always be with her (most likely), housekeeper, bill payer, and yet she still finds time to do things at church and go to my younger brother's and babysit his children one day a week while my sis-in-law works. Oh, and remember, she's in her early 70s!

I frankly don't know how she does it. And she's so sweet! And kind. I never hear her complain. And she always does for and gives to her children. She never asks for anything in return, and when she does ask for help, it's usually with a thought that she really doesn't want to bother us. I cannot tell you how much I love her, appreciate her and admire her for the person she is and for how she lives her life. Gah! Now I'm gonna cry. So, it's time to POST. ^_^

Day 3 - My First Love

2011-02-03T23:59:00.024-06:00

Okay, I have to preface by saying that I'm actually going to break this up into two different kinds of people.

1) A first love, as in someone that I really loved, but didn't necessarily feel the same way about me, and

2) A first love that was someone I fell in love with, and who DID feel the same way about me.

So, person 1, people may say that because I was a teenager it was probably just a huge crush, but I don't feel that way. In my sophomore year of high school, I met Aaron G. Getting to know him, I truly came to love him (as much as a teenager can, I suppose). I had never felt that way about anyone. I had had many crushes before, and this was more than that. He and I became good friends, and about a year after he graduated from HS (he was a year older than me, and at that point had moved to another town), we lost touch. I wish I had kept in touch, just to see how his life went. (I finally found him a few years ago, after having searched for several years. I contacted him by email, mostly a sending out into the universe type email, and he responded back. He asked me for my number so we could get in touch, but really, I had said all I wanted to say, and wanted to retain this wonderful memory of the person I knew him to be at that time. I don't regret not getting in touch with him on the phone.) Knowing him led to the second person I loved after him, in my early young adult years (they had that similar "thing" that me me love them) -- though, I would say, that second person was someone I had a more mature love and understanding for. That person and I became really good friends, and at times I thought "maybe," but it wasn't meant to be, because ....

I eventually met Brian, my husband. I would have to say that he was the first person I fell in love with that fell in love with me. He was my first boyfriend, but that's all I needed. ^_^ I know I should probably have so many things to say about Brian, but bottom line: he pursued me (which was refreshing for me); he said the "I love you" first; and he is my best friend. From the moment I met him, I was comfortable with him and could talk to him about anything. Doesn't my marrying him say everything else?! ^_^

Day 2 - Meaning Behind My Blog Name

2011-02-02T11:44:00.000-06:00

The title of my blog is Nonchalant Girl.

What's the meaning behind it? It's really quite simple. For quite a long time now, since I began to really love reading and words, nonchalant has been my favorite word. I like what it means, I like the way it sounds -- cool and elegant, but a tad mysterious. And, even though I'm in my mid-30s, I still consider myself at many times to still be just a Girl. So, therefore, Nonchalant Girl.

Day 1 - Introduce, Recent Picture, 15 Interesting Facts

2011-02-01T16:30:00.003-06:00

Yep, that's me -- Gabby. And yes, that's the most recent picture of me. Yes, I know you've seen it before. It's fun! ^_^

I don't know much else to introduce myself with, since it's all in the sidebar there, and I try to keep it up to date. ^_^

As for 15 interesting facts about me(don't know how interesting they will be):

1. I was born in Cost Rica.
2. When I was about 18 months old, I jumped out of my crib and broke my arm. I had to be in a partial body cast for awhile.
3. I have also lived in Honduras.
4. In my family, I am four of five. (Hah, sounds like a Borg designation.)
5. My maiden name (Najera) is from Spain, but has Moorish influences. (There's a famous battle with my family name in it.)
6. I can read, speak and (mostly) write Spanish fluently (those darn accent marks get me every time, though).
7. I sing as a hobby. I'm a first Soprano (which means I can hit those really high notes.)
8. I'm currently the choir director at church (even though I wonder why *LOL*).
9. I can make my nostrils flare.
10. I think chocolate ice cream is gross.
11. My husband is 6 years younger than I am.
12. While I am considered Hispanic (mostly from Mexican descent), I am also 1/8 Irish. ^_^
13. I pretend that my cats can talk to me by being their voice for them (as in, I talk to them and I talk to myself back, in a slightly different voice, as if it was one of them answering me back).
14. I am on the Design Team (aka a "Mint Chick") for PeppermintCreative.com (a digital scrapbook supplies site).
15. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (aka Mormon).

Blog Challenge for 30 Days

2011-02-01T11:28:00.001-06:00

I got this from Missy (she's my sister-in-law's sister), and thought it would be fun to do a blog challenge, where you post something specifically outlined for that day. It's sort of like NaBloPoMo, but each day is already set out for you. Who wants to join me? Over the next 30 days, these will be the topics:

Day 1 - Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
Day 2 - Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3 - Your first love
Day 4 - Your parents
Day 5 - Your siblings
Day 6 - A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7 - Favorite movies
Day 8 - A place you've traveled to
Day 9 - A picture of your friends
Day 10 - Something you're afraid of
Day 11 - Favorite TV shows
Day 12 - What you believe
Day 13 - Goals
Day 14 - A picture you love
Day 15 - Bible verse
Day 16 - Dream House
Day 17 - Something you're looking forward to
Day 18 - Something you regret
Day 19 - Something you miss
Day 20 - Nicknames
Day 21 - Picture of yourself
Day 22 - Favorite city
Day 23 - Favorite vacation
Day 24 - Something you've learned
Day 25 - Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26 - Picture of your family
Day 27 - Pets
Day 28 - Something that stresses you out
Day 29 - 3 wishes
Day 30 - A picture

So, I will post later today with Day 1!!

Silly Self Portraits

2011-01-26T13:03:00.000-06:00

I'm not a fan of having my picture taken -- for various reasons. However, as part of a photography challenge at PeppermintCreative.com this week, I decided that since I AM on the design team, it's probably a good thing to try and participate. So, I decided to have some fun, dig through my costume closet and ... smile/smize for the camera!

I call this series:

Gettin' Wiggy With It*

*Why yes, it is a play on the Will Smith song Gettin' Jiggy With It, thanks for noticing! ^_-

The 50-Book Challenge (2010)

2011-01-19T15:14:00.001-06:00

Around the beginning of 2009, I came across a challenge on a forum I used to frequent called "The 50-Book Challenge." The challenge: to read 50 books in a year. I once got asked on average how many books I read, and I'm a fast ready, so I said that I could probably read about 1 a week, give or take the size of the book and my interest in it. So, I decided to start to keep track of all the books I read in that year. I actually ended 2009 with 51 books! (Why I didn't blog about it, I don't know. ^_-)

So, I decided to list the books I read last year -- 2010. I once again surpassed the challenge and actually read 57 books. Oooo! *LOL* Anyway, here's the list, with a few notes about whether I recommend it), and after I will make a few comments about some specific books.

Books Read During 2010

1. The Wonderful Wizard of Oz by Frank L. Baum
2. Midnight Never Come by Marie Brennan
3. Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides
4. The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger (Recommended)
5. Guardian's of the West by David Eddings (Re-read) (Recommended)
6. King of the Murgos by David Eddings (Re-read) (Recommended)
7. Demon Lord of Karanda by David Eddings (Re-read) (Recommended)
8. Sorceress of Darshiva by David Eddings (Re-read) (Recommended)
9. The Seeress of Kell by David Eddings (Re-read) (Recommended)
10. Dreaming in Hindi by Katherine Russell Rich
11. Confessor by Terry Goodkind
12. The Virgin Suicides by by Jeffrey Eugenides
13. The Know-It-All by A.J. Jacob (Recommended)
14. Eragon by Christopher Paolini
15. The Tennis Partner by Abraham Verghese (Recommended)
16. The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards
17. The Virgin of Small Plains by Nancy Pickard
18. Dealing with Dragons (Enchanted Forest Chronicles, #1) by Patricia C. Wrede
19. Mansfield Park by Jane Austen (Re-read) (Recommended)
20. Animal Farm by George Orwell
21. Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk
22. The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd (Highly Recommended)
23. The Marvelous Land of Oz by Frank L. Baum
24. Ozma of Oz by Frank L. Baum
25. Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris
26. Moon Called by Patricia Briggs
27. Searching for Dragons (Enchanted Forest Chronicles, #2) by Patricia C. Wrede
28. Calling on Dragons (Enchanted Forest Chronicles, #3) by Patricia C. Wrede
29. Talking to Dragons (Enchanted Forest Chronicles, #4) by Patricia C. Wrede
30. The Scent of Rain and Lightning by Nancy Pickard
31. Stiff: The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach (Highly Recommended)
32. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak (Recommended)
33. Elantris by Brandon Sanderson (Re-read) (Recommended)
34. Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert
35. Home: A Memoir of My Early Years by Julie Andrews Edwards
36. Alcatraz Versus the Evil Librarians by Brandon Sanderson
37. Snow Flower and the Secret Fan by Lisa See (Recommended)
38. Dorothy and the Wizard in Oz by Frank L. Baum
39. Maximized Living Nutrition Plans by K. Roberto and Dr. Lerner
40. The Road to Oz by Frank L. Baum
41. Steampunk-Style Jewelry by Jean Campbell
42. Blood Bound by Patricia Briggs
43. The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale (Recommended)
44. Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella
45. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins (Recommended)
46. Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins (Recommended)
47. Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins (Recommended)
48. The Way of Kings by Brandon Sanderson
49. Alice I Have Been by Melanie Benjamin
50. Towers of Midnight (Wheel of Time, #13) by Robert Jordan, Brandon Sanderson
51. Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen
52. The Book of Time by Guillaume Prévost (English Translation)
53. The Gate of Days by Guillaume Prévost (English Translation)
54. The Circle of Gold by Guillaume Prévost (English Translation)
55. The Emerald City of Oz by Frank L. Baum
56. The Nutcracker by E.T.A. Hoffmann
57. The Patchwork Girl of Oz by Frank L. Baum

I would have to say my favorite book of all 57 I read was The Secret Life of Bees. Even though some might say this is just a simple coming-of-age story, something about it really struck me. (This was about halfway through my challenge, but it really resonated with me. I also watched the movie a few months back, and I found it a faithful adaptation.)

Another really good one was The Book Thief. I actually didn't know much at all going into the book, and it was eye opening for me, showing how even many Germans (just the regular folk) didn't have it too great during WWII either.

I don't normally pick up nonfiction, but having been part of a book club where we read some, I decided to venture out a little more. A fellow book clubber recommended Stiff: The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers. It seems like the strangest book, and it is, but SO fascinating!! I think my favorite chapter is how the remains of victims of a plane crash can help determine what caused the crash. Very interesting stuff!! I don't think I would have normally even read a nonfiction book like this, but I do recommend it.

And, while some might think it a little pop fiction (which I used to try and stay away from, but, eh *shrug*), and young adult SciFi, I cannot help but mention The Hunger Games books. Quick, but engrossing reads, with an author that isn't afraid to kill off characters.

Snow Flower and the Secret Fan is such a sad tale, overall, not just because of the way Chinese women were treated back in the foot-binding days, nor because of the horrific act of foot binding (and all that it entailed), but because it follows two friends and how that friendship fares throughout the years. (BTW, have you ever looked at foot that has been bound. SO strange!! *shudder*)

And last to mention, is the hilarious The Know-It-All. It has so many funny anecdotes, that I would barely pick up book for night reading and chuckle, and Brian would say "Already?" Yes. Already! It's another nonfiction book, about a guy who decides to read the entire Encyclopedia Britannica and write about his experience. Thankfully, he doesn't comment on each entry, and not EACH of his entries is funny (some are thoughtful), but overall, I was highly amused.

So, there ya go! How about you? Any good reads last year? Any recommendations? (My "to-read" list is dwindling, so I appreciate any input. ^_^

What I Learned From Project 365

2011-01-13T10:19:00.001-06:00

As you know, I completed Project 365 for 2010. And I learned quite a few things. Although the year has already started, I thought that for anyone wanting to do a Project 365 (or even a Project 52), that I would impart those lessons I learned while doing this project. ^_^ And remember, you can start Project 365 any time you want!

What I learned from Project 365 (in no particular order):

1. Take your camera with you everywhere!! Luckily, my purse was big enough to hold my camera, along with all the normal things I carry (wallet, small makeup bag, etc.). This, I think, is the number one thing. Because you never know when you're going to see something interesting that you'll want to take a shot of.

2. Be aware of your surroundings, at all times. It's easy to get caught up with our every day lives, and just focus on the task at hand (going to/from work, or going to the grocery story, etc.) that we sometimes don't look around just a bit to see what's interesting. And don't forget to look up, as well. (That's how I got the really cool Birds on a Wire shot.) You never know what's in that field across from your house; what's just a few feet away in the grocery store parking lot; what's up in the air, at the moment. Look around and notice!

3. It gets a little easier once you've done it for a little while. I know of so many people who have started Project 365 and then fizzled out on it. I can totally understand it! I learned to really focus at the beginning and be very aware, so that I wouldn't miss a day. After a few months, it was pretty much constant in my mind.

4. Get your shot in earlier in the day, rather than later. This kind of goes along with the previous one, but I found that if I thought about getting the shot in the early part of the day, not only would I have some natural light to work with, but I wouldn't be scrambling around late at night to get something photographed (it did happen on occasion and many of those pictures I was less than happy about).

5. Plan ahead (especially for those harder days), if you need to. Yes, part of Project 365 is the spontaneity, but not necessarily. There's nothing that says you can't have a running theme, or particular subject in mind (whether for the whole project, or just one month, or one week). It can make things easier! I discovered that Sundays were my hardest days for Project 365, because my Sundays tend to be pretty sedate, and I don't do much except go to church. I finally found that those days were good for taking Sunday drives around my town (and neighboring ones), to discover things of interest (whether an unusual house in an otherwise traditional neighborhood, or a cute downtown area of a small suburban town). I also sometimes kept any object I wanted to photograph (purchase, or gift) for Sundays.

6. It can be okay to fudge a little. So I may receive some flack for this one, but it's MY Project 365, so there! But I think there are times when you just cannot be perfect! In 365 days, something might go amiss -- from sickness, to bad days, to forgetfulness, life happens! So don't beat yourself up if you somehow miss a day. I myself have taken a picture several minutes after midnight, and therefore it technically not being that day anymore, but I still counted it. I have also forgotten a day or two. You make it work for you like you can (like writing a note how you missed that day and taken a photo of it, etc.). It's fine. NOW, if you miss several days in a row, well .... Don't know what to tell ya then. ^_^

7. Your pictures don't always have to be interesting. This project is about documenting your life. Most of us don't live glamorous lives. Life just is. But, as mentioned before, if you look around, something may catch your eye and become something interesting.

8. Even if you don't think your photo is interesting, a little tweaking can help it. A little post processing can help a photo. Oh, I know there are purists who will tell you that a good photo doesn't need it. But, turning something to black and white, or to sepia, or giving it a vintage or retro wash can really make something boring, to interesting.

9. This is a chance to experiment and learn to take better photos and make better use of your camera. Vary the shots between portrait and landscape. Take pictures from different angles. Hold your camera up high, point it down and shoot. Hold your camera down low, point up and shoot. Put it on the ground. Hold it at your hip. Get on the level of what you're shooting for more interest (most helpful for babies and pets). If you have a DSLR, look at some blogs for tips and tricks on how to use it better. Does your point and shoot have some manual settings? Try them!

10. Have fun! One of the other more important items. If you start thinking of this as a chore, and you're starting to hate having to remember your camera or take photos, then by all means, stop the project. This project is meant to be fun, but also a way to document your life (hey, it's another way to journal). But it shouldn't feel like a hassle. Oh, sure, sometimes it might feel like something you HAVE to do, but most of the time, you'll enjoy that it's something you need to do, to see what next you can capture about your life.

I may add more, but I think 10 is a good number. I also don't think any of these are earth-shattering. I may add, not so much as a learned thing, but as a tip, that it's a good idea to post these somewhere publicly, whether Flickr or Facebook (I link my Flickr site to FB), or a blog, so that others can see what you're up to. The encouragement from others is a great help in soldiering on. ^_^

Amanda is Married!

2011-01-10T11:04:00.000-06:00

Amanda and Marc

This past Saturday, my oldest niece got married. I can't believe that she's married! Wasn't it just the other day that she was a baby that I took care of, carrying on my hip and getting her bottles of "mok" as she called milk. And wasn't she just a toddler that would ask for "cheput" (ketchup) on her eggs? Or a young girl who would become obsessed with The Little Mermaid, the color purple, and anime because her favorite aunt liked those things?? Wasn't she just graduating from high school and making her way to college? (Granted, this one was just over a year ago, but still....)

Between the two actual photographers and a very insistent family member who fancied themselves a photographer, I managed to snap this picture of the happy bride and her happy groom. My sis-in-law (Amanda's mother) came up to me and asked if I had taken any good picture of them that we could run to a photo place and get it printed and framed to place at the reception later that day. Lucky for her, I had, and instead, ran it home, did a soft filter to it and placed it in one of our frames. Amanda LOVED it, and so did the family.

So, after taking a quick look at iheartfaces today, I knew I had to enter this lovely picture, since this week it's about Smiles. It's my first time entering, and I don't think I'll win, but that's okay. I'm just glad I was able to capture her sweetness, her loveliness and her happiness. And that's what really matters. ^_^

THE New Year's Post

2011-01-03T17:53:00.000-06:00

Happy New Year Y'all!

Yes, yes, this is the post where I tell you about how I lived up to last year's brand new expectations, and what I plan to do for this year. Hah! Now, I bet you think I'm just kidding, but ... I'm not. ^_^

Truthfully, last year wasn't that "bad" for me, but it wasn't much of anything, truthfully. Oh, I know I can find a lot of great highlights and the like, like doing Project 365 (sometimes I can't believe I'm still done with it -- I catch myself thinking of photos I need to take! *LOL*), but I just felt like last year just was. At least for me.

I have a good feeling about 2011. I feel that it will be a year of changes, among other things. But mostly, I just feel good about it. I feel like I'm on the right path. To what, I don't know. ^_^

I looked over last year's post to see what was going on then, and I have to just sigh and shrug. And smile.

The Job. Sure, my freelancing thing didn't take off like I wanted. I did get more work than I did the previous year, so that's nice. But it kind of dwindled for the last few months. Which means I will probably start having to look for a new job soon, as money's getting to the point that we don't want to be left without a little bit of a cushions. I'll still try to do the freelance thing, and hey, if I have a full time job and get a few freelance things once in awhile, that'll be nice, won't it? Ah, change one. ^_^

School. Brian's schooling hasn't gone as I planned, but I have learned that it ultimately has to be his decision. We have decided to really think and pray about it for the next month or two, and he will decide what he wants to do. I know there's fear, like how we will pay for it; will he be able to handle that plus a full time job; will other things come up that may impede it? But ... truthfully, I told him that I have faith that it will work out. That I know he's capable! He's one of the smartest people I know (and I wouldn't have married him if he was a dummy! *LOL*). We'll see. Ah, another (possible) change. ^_^

Crafting. I vowed to not buy anything crafty, but that went downhill when I became part of a creative team for a digital scrapbooking designer. Oh, well. I will try to be better, because of the whole money thing mentioned earlier.

Friendships. I think some got harder, and some got easier. Some stayed nicely where they were. I think in my post about friendship some time back, I kinda spilled my thoughts about trying to be a better friend, and how others are in friendship. However, I think I got some clarity on trying to be a better friend when I wrote about being more interested than trying to be interested. I think I also realized a few things: As much as I want to be a better friend, I can only handle them one at a time, maybe two, depending. For some reason, I just cannot function well in a group. I sometimes feel silenced, ignored, or not included (even though I'm physically there). I know, I know. It's probably all me. But ... I kinda like being with just one gal pal. Because that way I can focus completely on her, and she on me. I think in a group it's so easy to be superficial, unless you all know each other really well. I think, also, because I had one best girl friend for a long time, that being in a group of bestie gal pals is something foreign to me, and at this stage, I don't know how to function like that -- it's awkward for me. I guess I also just want to feel important to that person as well. *shrugs* ^_^

So, what will this new year bring for me? What do I want to focus on? Well, I already mentioned some changes and possible changes.

Along with perhaps Brian really going back to school on a consistent basis, is a move. Oh, not far, just to another area nearby that would be closer to the school we've been looking at that has a program Brian's interested in. It still would be a suburb of Dallas. I know for sure that we're a little tired of this apartment with its poor management, noisy, rude neighbors, and the very high electric bills (especially during the summer, yikes!). Ideally we'd like to rent a house, but ... we'll see. I do know that I told Brian that wherever we go, I think I want it to be the last move we make before we get a house.

Which brings me to the next thing we want to work on, which is our finances! Except for the variable of the exorbitant, fluctuating summer electric bill, I went over a budget and realized we actually have the potential to be saving much more than we have been. I actually didn't think we had the money, but we've just been a little less aware of it for the last 6 months, or so (maybe longer) and it's time to get a reign back on things. And be aware of what we're spending money on. AND, if I get a job somewhat soon, than most of what I'm making can go directly to savings. I want to have an emergency savings, plus a house savings (down payment, plus any extra expenditures, including an allotment for new furniture), before we even consider a house. I don't want to be house poor. And I also don't want to constantly be putting money into the house. For now, renting works for us, so that's where we are.

Another thing that I want to do is increase my spirituality. I'm not the best about praying in the morning and evening, nor about studying scriptures, but I think now that I'm not focused on other things, like Project 365, and not going to bother with TRYING to read at least 50 books in a year, that I can take a few moments that I had devoted to those, to spiritual pursuits. I think writing in my personal journal will also help with this, as I need to devote time to me and my private thoughts. Phew, doesn't that sound daunting?! ^_^

Well, it's like a leader in my church talked about: "Good. Better. Best." He talked about how there are many Good things in this world to devote our time to. But, there are even Better things than those. And, ultimately, there are the Best things to devote ourselves to. In church on Sunday we had a lesson that reiterated this (going along with setting goals and resolutions), and the teacher had a great object lesson about this. She had a bowl and asked people to call out what some of the Best things to do were. For each thing someone called out, she filled the bowl with an orange, lemon or lime. The bowl got pretty full, and she asked if we could fit anything else in. Some thought not, some thought maybe. But then she brought out a bag of rice, and she said that those grains represented the Better things, and the Good things. The rice filled in all the empty spaces in between the fruit. After we do all the Best things we need to do in our life (and, by the way, it wasn't just spiritual things, as going to work was mentioned, so that one can pay for mortgage/rent and food! ^_^) then we can have time to do the other things that are Good as time permits. And then someone commented that if the bowl/life fills up with those things and we can't get to them, then that's okay, because the Best things have already been taken care of. (And, it was also mentioned that if the bowl had been filled with the rice, we wouldn't be able to fit the fruit in.) Isn't that a great lesson? I think I shall remember it for a long time.

So, this year I shall try to be my Best self, because that's all I can be. Sure, there are days when I may only be Good, or days when I am Better, but hopefully if I aim high, then I will not succumb to the bad. ^_^ But, of course, I'm only human. And, if I do fall one day, I always have the next to pick myself up (and hopefully good friends to help along the way).

So, there you have it, my few blogger friends. May we all have a fantastic 2011!! ^_^

Project 365 Complete with Week 52!

2010-12-31T15:54:00.000-06:00

Yay! I completed Project 365!! Here is the final week:

December 24 - December 31

May everyone have a safe New Year's Eve and a great beginning to 2011!

Catch ya next year!! ^_-

Project 365 Roundup: Weeks 49, 50 & 51

2010-12-28T12:22:00.000-06:00

December 3 - December 9

December 10 - December 16

December 17 - December 23

Not Invited

2010-12-21T09:22:00.000-06:00

This past Saturday was my niece's bridal shower, which I was ~~told, er,~~ asked to give for her, along with some of her other aunts. It was a great party, but I won't go into all the drama about people not RSVPing, etc., as this is not the purpose of this post.

After people had left, and we were all talking, somehow it was mentioned that the invitations for the wedding had gone out a week and a half ago. And I had to pause. A week and a half? Surely mine should have arrived by now. I mentioned this to my niece and we just thought that it was taking longer because of all the holiday mail.

But, after checking the mail on Saturday and not seeing one, I decided to ask some family members if they had received theirs. And ... they HAD. Hmmm.... Why had I not received mine? I had to be invited. I mean, I AM the favorite aunt, right??

And then I started thinking .... Their invitation list began as the invitation list from my wedding over 4 years ago. That way they could have family members on it, and then build from there. But WHO wouldn't be on that list? The list creators, in other words, Brian and I. No, I thought. Surely they made sure everyone who needed to be on the list was on the list and weren't just relying on it as is. But ... given ALL of the things that have just gone not as it should with that wedding, I realized that yes, that had to be it, it had to be that we were never added to the list that *I* provided.

So, I kindly called my niece and left her a message detailing the above. And, not 5 minutes later she calls back and ... (after she had checked) yes, that was exactly IT! We were never put ON the list. (And, of course, no one bothered to check it. Hmph.) She apologized, and it was actually kinda funny at this point, because it's just been thing after thing with them. But, you know ... even though I was told that I certainly knew how to throw a party (after the bridal shower), I just wanted to say, "Yet I was told to butt out of helping with the wedding."

Oh, well. At this point, everything is just funny, and I have to shake my head. Luckily, it's not my wedding. Mine was awesome and fabulous, everyone had a great time AND it's still talked about to this day. I say that THAT was a great party.

Oh. And my invitation is now on its way. ^_^

A Stress Ball

2010-12-13T23:35:00.002-06:00

Normally, I don't get stressed around the holidays. Busy, sure, but not stressed.

However, right now it's a little different. Why, you ask?

1. This coming Saturday is my oldest niece's bridal shower, which I am co-hosting. It was a big to-do to get invites made and addresses gathered and invites sent and waiting for people to RSVP. AND, this all had to be planned within just a few weeks because the wedding only had 2 months to be planned anyway. Seventy invites were sent out. Yes, you read that right: 70. That doesn't even mean the actual number invited, because some addresses had multiple people invited. And do you know how many people have RSVPed? 6. And total people confirmed to be there? Oh, about 13 (and yes, that includes her mother, those hosting, and family helping with the shower). Today was the deadline for the RSVP. Do you not know what that means?! Argh! Plus, I am putting together a guest/memory book for her and that's taking some of my time.

2. I am in charge of putting music together for church every Sunday (although there's usually someone who picks out the hymns). However, I select someone or people for any special musical numbers. Oh, yes, and I'm also the choir director. This coming Sunday is our Christmas program, with, you guessed it, LOTS of music! And while overall the pool of really talented singers in our church is small, I know that there are others that CAN do music, and so I've been trying to incorporate those people that aren't normally asked to perform (singers and instrumentalists alike), but I tell ya, trying to wrangle all of those different numbers together, not to mention getting the choir in tip-top shape for their numbers, well ... it's stressing me out, as there have been some issues with things coming together. (So much so, that I've been focusing on everyone else, and the quartet I wanted to do, will now have to be a solo with me, which is fine, except that I sang at Easter, but now it's too late to have someone else sing it. *sigh*)

3. While I have done a couple of things for Peppermint Creative, I am probably not doing as much as others, seeing as I have many other things on my plate. Of course, we got most of the stuff really recently and that puts a crunch on the designer wanting layouts to showcase her new designs. Sometimes I think those other ladies are so much better than me! But, I'm trying to get better. I just can't scrap as quickly as they can! :(

4. And, of course, Christmas!!! We did a preliminary survey of gifts we already had a few weeks into November, but I haven't had a chance to look back and see if we need to get anymore gifts, not to mention getting things wrapped and prepped. Christmas is next week! Ack!

I know, I know. B R E A T H E. And, just take it one at a time. And, I'm trying. I am. Sometimes, though, I think about it, and ack! It freaks me out. I think part of the reason I'm stressed is because I'm having to depend on others -- let go of the control, because I cannot control them.

*more breaths* At least Brian and the cats entertain me and make me smile.

Project 365 Roundup: Week 48

2010-12-03T12:17:00.000-06:00

November 26 - December 2

NaBloPoMo 2010 Completed!

2010-11-30T21:39:00.000-06:00

In case you missed it, I did write an actual blog post before this one for the day. Scroll down.

So, yes, I did it. I wrote at least one blog post a day, for the month of November. And I almost, almost had something to say each day.

Now, whether someone actually read any of it (oh, I saw a few stragglers here and there ^_-), that's another story. ^_^

Simplifying

2010-11-30T21:36:00.000-06:00

For about the last 6 months, I've had the need to makes things more simple. In all aspects of my life. I feel that if I do that, I can get a sense of what direction my life needs to take (specifically in regards to a career).

So, little by little we've been de-cluttering and getting things organized so that I don't feel bogged down at home by the clutter and mess, and so that every thing I own has a place and purpose.

I've made some headway -- some of our stuff I've sold on Craigslist, the money which has gone into my computer fund -- but there are still things to get rid of. Small things, fabric, lots of Anime collectibles that I just need to purge and save the most precious, document the rest and sell them.

I think we, as Americans, are so blessed, overall. So many of us have so much, when many in other countries don't. And you'd think I'd know this better than many, since I not only was born in Costa Rica, but also lived in Honduras (a VERY poor country). But, yes, I was somewhat privileged.

But honestly, I probably wouldn't mind getting rid of most of my things, and living in some cute little beach bungalow, enjoying simpler pleasures. Oh, sure, I'd still want my computer, and probably my books, I mean, I don't want to live completely without some luxuries, but ... well, you know what I mean. ^_^

I just want to have a home that's comfortable, that isn't hiding giant messes in the closets, where I have things in bins or bags that I haven't touched for years, where I don't have any room to put them. What's the point of having them, if I can't put them anywhere?

So, I will continue to make a little headway and simplify my life, and earn a little money doing so. Hopefully, that will lead me to clarity into what I should do with my life.

Interested, Not Interesting

2010-11-29T20:28:00.001-06:00

Several weeks ago, Oprah had Jane Fonda on, and Jane said something that really struck me. She was talking about being older, and how this time in her life is a great time, and perhaps better than others.

She then said that she has learned that to really connect with people (well, that's what I think she was saying anyway, as I think about that show) is to not be so self absorbed in trying to be interesting. She said, instead, that she now tries to be interested in others and their lives.

And I have thought a lot about that since then, and I guess it's another way of saying that we shouldn't be so selfish and serve others. Sometimes, serving others can be as simple as smiling, as saying hello, as saying "How are you doing?" and really meaning it. I have to tell you, I really loathe the "How are you doing?" line. I know it's considered polite, but if you don't really want to hear it, then don't ask. Because most people aren't just "Fine, thank you." But if you are sincere in asking, then be ready to hear the truth, and try to be one of those people that others like to confide in and tell the truth.

I know I'm very much at fault at the trying to be interesting, or talking about myself. I find that I sometimes tend to do that a lot, and it's not that I don't want to hear what others have to say, I think it's because, especially for the last two years, I haven't had very many people, outside of Brian, to tell about things going on in my life. While Brian is my best friend, I lack many close girl friends (which I've mentioned in a previous post on friendship). And so, when I get to talking to someone about anything I might remotely have my hand in (from costuming to photography), I tend to ... well, overshare and talk a lot about me and what I do.

And, because usually most of the time for conversation is short, I don't get to the point to ask the other person about themselves. *sighs*

So, as this year approaches its end, and a new one is soon to begin, I will try to be more interested in others, and not be so focused on seeming interesting. Because, while I may be interesting, I have a blog to talk all about me, right? ^_^

Christmas Printable

2010-11-28T16:54:00.001-06:00

I came across this idea on someone else's blog, and I thought I could easily make one, in a color I wanted!

Have you seen those "Keep Calm and Carry On" posters? Well, this is a Christmas version of that poster.

And, you are free to download and print out to use in your holiday decor! I have two versions, each in green and red, all in 8x10.

Enjoy!

(To download, click on image, which will take you to the larger image. Then just save down to your computer by clicking "Save Image As." You can print at home, or take somewhere that makes prints. Any questions, just let me know!)

Words with Friends

2010-11-27T20:16:00.000-06:00

The best game I like to play on my iPhone is Words with Friends. It's basically Scrabble, and, you can play against your friends who also have an iPhone.

I think the highest scoring word I've put down so far was 101 points. Although, for the life of me I can't remember what the word was!!

Now, I have to admit, sometimes I am a little creative in searching for my word choice, but even then I can still end up losing. What I dislike is when people take my spot! Arrgh!

I also like to play Scrabble, but it's fun to play against all of your friends, and not just a close, personal group.

As for games that I play alone, I think Angry Birds ranks there in the top.

Oh, I know they're time wasters, but they're fun! ^_^

What kinds of games (on your phone or regular), do you like to play?

Project 365 Roundup: Weeks 46 & 47

2010-11-27T16:01:00.000-06:00

November 12 - November 18

November 19 - November 25

Christmas Decorations are Up!

2010-11-26T21:05:00.002-06:00

So, I don't usually put my decorations up the day after Thanksgiving, but ... knowing how crazy my December (and part of January) will be, I decided it was now, or never.

However, we are not putting up a tree. It's mostly because the cats have really damaged the one we have, and it looks pretty sad. That, and we don't have much room these days. The place it went in last year has a chair in that spot now. And no place else to put the chair.

So, what we mostly decorated was the mantel, and a few other little places here and there. What do you think?

(Sorry about the lighting -- this was taken indoors, without flash, using my phone camera.)

My favorite part is the stockings for the cats. I got them several years ago, and one says "It's All About Meow" and the other says "I've Been Purrfect." Also, very hard to tell, but on the upper left corner of their stockings, on the white cuff, there's a silver embroidered fish skeleton. They're so adorable! Seriously! ^_^

Edited to add:

Thanksgiving Surprise!

2010-11-25T21:30:00.000-06:00

So I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving.

Even though we went out to eat, it was kinda nice not to have to deal with bringing food and doing dishes. However, we did end up at Brian's aunt and hung out, had some dessert and watched the Cowboys play. I'm not really a fan of football, but it was actually a pretty exciting game!

Oh, and the surprise -- not a good one. We came home to discover that our kitchen sink had backed up and overflowed, partially flooding our kitchen.

This has somewhat happened before, when our upstairs neighbor would put a lot of stuff down the disposal and it would come flooding back up in our sink. Gross, I know. Last time it happened, I was here to help by scooping out dirty water and tossing it out the window. Sadly, we weren't home this time, so it's all over the floor.

Ugh. We have called the apartment office several times to get this problem taken care of, and as of yet, they have not returned our calls. It'd be horrible to find out if someone had a horrible emergency that needed to be taken care of right away and no on was available. I GET that it's a holiday, but there should still be someone on call. *sigh*

Now the sink is going back down, but it's draining INTO the dishwasher. Yuck. Yuck. Yuck!!!

Needless to say, this was not the most fun thing to come home to after a holiday. But, overall, it was a nice day.

Now if only those maintenance people would get back to us.

I Braved Walmart Today

2010-11-24T15:49:00.000-06:00

So, as I mentioned before, I went to Walmart today. Yup. I braved the-day-before-Thanksgiving at Walmart.

I actually ran into two different people I know. How funny is that?! I guess we're all crazy.

I went early (around 10), so it wasn't that bad, really. Well, except for the people who bought two carts full of turkeys. No kidding! I think they had like 20. I can only assume they work for some non-profit and they are giving these away to needy families. My only concern was that they were frozen turkeys. Those birds are not going to be thawed by tomorrow!

I saw a few other people buying frozen turkeys as well! Like I said, hope they don't plan to have them tomorrow.

I am making Brian and I a turkey on Friday. I got a small one (a tad less than 10 pounds), fresh (well, fresh in that it's been thawed already), and a few things for sides, as well as some rolls and pies. (If I had the time I might have made an apple pie from scratch -- really easy if you buy rollout crusts ^_^).

Now, I would have been REALLY brave if I had hit Walmart up later this afternoon or tonight. I may be crazy, but I'm not THAT crazy! *LOL*

Getting Ready for Thanksgiving

2010-11-23T20:47:00.010-06:00

So, with all the planning and preparation for my niece's wedding, it has been decided in my immediate family that we are not doing a Thanksgiving this year. And the actual day of Thanksgiving is going to be spent at in-laws.

Except, we found out a few days ago that the in-laws are going out to eat. What a lovely thanksgiving (that was a little sarcastic, btw).

So, I decided to cook Brian and I a Thanksgiving dinner on Friday, so that we can actually have something homemade.

And, since I need other things as well, I am going to brave Walmart tomorrow. I know. I'm insane.

10 of My Favorite Things

2010-11-22T13:42:00.001-06:00

Okay, so I may not be unique to doing this, especially now, since Oprah's been doing two days of her favorite things, but I thought it would be fun to post those things in my life that I love to use or that I think are the greatest little ... whatever ... since sliced bread. ^_^ Oh, and I would LOVE to tell you that you are all getting one of each of these things, but ... no. Sorry. *LOL*

1. St. Ives Invigorating Face Scrub
I love this facial scrub. I use it every day, and I like that it feels like it's actual cleansing my face and leaves it feeling clean, but not all taut and dry. (And the only off-brand of it that I've used and thought was okay was Walmart's version.)

2. Covergirl Lipslicks Lipgloss in Bronze Goddess
I wear this almost every day. It gives a sheer hint of color, in a delicious shade that really complements my skin tone. It also helps keep my lips nice with a little moisture. I may not wear much makeup, but I dislike running around with nude lips. ^_^

3. Clinique's Blended Face Powder in (shade) Transparency Number 4
I like that Clinique's blended face powder has always had minerals in it, even before the whole mineral makeup craze came about. Like I said, I don't wear a lot of makeup, but almost every time I step out of the house, I make sure and dust some powder over my face. I like that it immediately tones down the shine and helps my complexion seem a little more smooth and even. (I don't wear base, but I like this just fine.)

4. Claddagh Ring from James Avery
Brian gave this ring to me as a gift at our first Christmas as a couple. His family is Irish and I have a little Irish in my background, and so this was quite appropriate and fitting. It also seemed to me like a Promise ring -- of things to come. ^_^ I wear it almost every day.

5. Canon PIXMA iP4700 Printer
I used to have a fancy, schmancy Epson wide-format printer, but after a little while, it started giving me a lot of problems. Finally, I could take it no more and decided to get a new on. I did some research, asked around, and decided on this one. The nice thing is that I got it for a great deal and I've been happy with it ever since. Prints great and hasn't given me problems ... yet. ^_^

6. American Crafts Cards and Envelopes
I love these cards and matching envelopes because they can be inexpensive, yet have a lovely texture to them. I like printing on them (using my Canon printer), because overall they take ink well. These are my go-to cards for anything pre-made and pre-scored. I love them!

7. Apple iPhone 4
What can I say? I finally took the plunge into the Smartphone market back in July, and while I honestly did not think I needed something like this (and really, I probably don't really NEED it), I have loved having it! It is truly amazing all that things that it can do and that it can put at your fingertips. There are so many useful apps (in addition to time wasting ones, which I admit I have done), like the Calendar option, so I can make sure and put important information so that it's available to me. No more forgetting about appointments!

8. Sony Cybershot DSC-H2
I've had my camera since April 2007, and I still love it. Overall it takes great photos! Oh, sure, there are times when I wish it would take better photos like a DSLR, but it's not a DSLR. It's more than a point and shoot, however. I also like that I've taken over 10,000 shots with it, and it's still going strong. My previous digicam wasn't doing so hot after 2 years of use. So, one day, down the line I will upgrade, but I hope this one lasts for a few more years. It's been a good camera.

9. KitchenAid Artisan Stand Mixer
We got our KitchenAid mixer for our wedding, and while I didn't use it much at the beginning, I have loved using it more and more. It makes breadmaking and easy peasy task. (Seriously, I didn't know breadmaking was so easy!) I know there are so many more things it can do, but for now I am content to stick with using it for my baking needs. (Oh, and the color picture is actually called Boysenberry. Ours is actually Plum, but apparently not a color they make them in anymore.)

10. The Library
Okay, so this is a weird thing, perhaps, but I couldn't just put ONE book as my favorite, so I put a place where you can get LOTS of books. This is my local library. I just love that you can get books, read them, take them back. And start over. Find new favorites. Rediscover old ones. I hope that everyone can know the joy of their library. It truly is a great place!! ^_^

So, there you have it -- 10 of my favorite things. What are some of YOUR favorite things???

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hal-le-lu-jah!

2010-11-21T13:52:00.000-06:00

At our church (and many other LDS ones around the country), the first weekend of December is usually devoted to a creche or nativity exhibit, where members are asked to volunteer their nativity sets so that they can be shared with the community. Usually, as part of these, there is music performed while people peruse the exhibit.

I am in the choir this year, performing on Saturday evening, and one of the pieces we are singing is the "Hallelujah" Chorus from Handel's Messiah. Now you'd think that since I've been in church choirs since my late teens, that I might have, at one point, sung the this piece. However, that would be incorrect. It's true! I have never actually sung this piece. And some people in our choir were horrified (okay, not really) to learn of how some people, including me, had never sung it before. Well, what can I say? I'm learning it now, though.

And boy, is that puppy hard! Because, you think you know what it sounds like, but then again, each part is different than you think to contribute to the whole. And, the Soprano line is no different. There's even some tricky timing with one section of the hallelujahs.

But, thank goodness for the Internet. On YouTube I have pulled up the Soprano part only and been able to practice at home and not felt so inept at singing this. Now I feel a lot more confident.

Fun times!

Sometimes I Wonder Why I Bother

2010-11-20T20:16:00.001-06:00

Over the last couple of months, I have finally learned a hard lesson. It somewhat goes hand in hand with the posts I wrote earlier, one about things that should come back in style, like manners, and the other one about thank you notes. It really boils down to appreciation, or, lack thereof, for work I have put into things. Let me explain with examples.

Example One: A person that I see on a fairly regular basis knows I like to take photos and that I have a decent camera (for it not being a DSLR). So this person, a few weeks (maybe even a month, now, or more) asked me to take some photos for them. They asked me 2 days before they wanted photos done. And, it wasn't even phrased in a manner that would have helped me say yes. It was ALMOST like I was being told to do it. But, that may have only been perception, since it wasn't asked face to face. Not only did I not really have the time (especially since it was short notice), I I felt that this person would be much better served if they had a professional photographer take these particular photos.

Because of the unique situation, and the time crunch this person was in, I got in touch with a photographer that I had won a free photo shoot from and asked that photographer if I could gift my photo shoot to this person. Her schedule was tight and she was only available at a certain time, and so I passed this information along to the person who wanted me to take their photos. I didn't hear back from them. Then, because the time was growing more short, I let this person know of several other photographers I know of or I have worked with that might be able to work with them. Again, I heard nothing.

Now, like I said, there were special circumstances going on, so I understand that this person maybe couldn't get back to me, a the time, for various reasons. But at no point after this, or since I've seen this person, did they even thank me for my time, or for looking up other photography possibilities. Nothing. (And, it may just be perception again, but they seem a little more distant and cold. But, I guess that's neither here nor there.)

Example Two: This actually began before example one, or I might have rethought that situation. I was asked to take some photos for someone I know. I like taking photos and I usually don't take pictures of people, because it can be intimidating, but I went ahead and said yes. Mostly, because it would help me get a little more experience, and because the photos were going to be used for a personal project and not really seen by many people (in other words, not going on a Christmas card, or anything). Let me just say that during the photo shoot, it was expressed to me that they were thankful for my being able to do this.

I had a good experience taking the photos, and as I was editing them (now taking place after example one), I thought that a lot of them came out pretty good, if I do say so myself. However, I do like to do artsy editing, and I hoped they liked it, although I wasn't sure. Also, I found these cool templates for storyboards online, and did a little extra with the photos -- mostly so I could do something fun, and not because I actually thought they would be used.

So I handed the photos over and ... nothing. I didn't get a thank you after they were looked at. I had no idea if they even liked the photos or if they were usable for them. I fretted a little, and even wondered if maybe I should have just done simpler edits. I knew when this project was to be presented, and the day came and went. Finally, a day or so after that, I couldn't help it, I sort of roundabout asked two people involved (at different times) how the pictures came out, citing that I usually don't print my pictures out (which is true, I don't) and just wondered how they came out. One told me they came out really nicely. Another one mentioned this too and finally said thank you.

But I have to tell you, I was a little discouraged. I'm not expecting to be told I'm the next Annie Leibovitz, and I would even have expected constructive criticism, but I didn't feel like I should have to fish for a thank you.

Example 3: My oldest niece, who turned 20 at the end of last month, also got engaged on her birthday. The wedding is at the beginning of January. I have long been purported to be the favorite aunt. Also, out of all the people in the close family, I was the most recently married. I KNEW that with such little time the ball had to start rolling, and quickly. So, I sent her several emails detailing things that needed to be done. Important things.

However, I recently learned, through my mother no less, that my emails have not really been appreciated. That they were stressing her and my sister-in-law out, because there were too many decisions to make and this wedding needed to be kept simple.

The problem is, decisions were NOT being made. And apparently, they thought I was being bossy and trying to run the show (maybe not said in so many words). And I have to tell you, I was shocked. Did I tell her she needed to get invitations out ASAP? Yes. Did I tell her which ones to choose? No. Did I let her know that they both had to be here several days before the wedding to get their marriage license because there's a waiting period? Yes. But that's a MUST. That's not optional.

So, my biggest fault was trying to be helpful, and so some it came off as something else. Well, forgive me for wanting a lovely day for my niece where she isn't stressing out! And ... I, yes, I, had to send an email apologizing for stressing them out and that my intention was only to help and not be bossy. And the response I got back from my sister-in-law was a thank you for my apologizing and that they wanted things simple and didn't want to stress out my niece. (She didn't even acknowledge the help, which I can tell you, the way this wedding has been planned, I will be surprised if everything gets done.)

I will agree that in the last example, I probably should have asked if they wanted help or advice, before providing it. I just wanted to be helpful! :(

However, I do want to make clear that while I don't expect a jubilant gratitude, I do hope for the minimum social cordiality of a thank you. That's it.

Like other people, my time and talents are valuable. And just because I'm doing it for free, doesn't mean that they're any less valuable than someone else's. I think, from here on out, I may decide to start charging for photo shoots, and the like. Just a small, minimum fee, to make it worth my while. Because if YOU can't tell me thank you, your money certainly will. *LOL*

Disclaimer: I am uneasy about making a disclaimer about something on MY blog. It's my blog, and I can cry (and whine), if I want to! *LOL* But I just want to make sure that it's understood that these are MY feelings. These are things that I have actually gone through and witnessed, and if I have upset or angered or offended anyone, that's not my intention. Yes, clearly I have been somewhat hurt by these things, but mostly because I thought more of the situations and people. You know, maybe these people don't even realize what I feel was done wrongly. They're my feelings, my perceptions and these recent examples have shown me how courtesy has declined in our society.

But, on another note, I DO realize we're all human. I DO realize we all make mistakes. I make them too. And it's possible I have slighted someone without knowing it, and if it's you, I apologize. I can maybe look back on these examples and think that these are these people's recent slip-ups and not a pattern of behavior. But that three happened to me within a short time frame does make me wonder.

AND, on that final note, I say that part of blogging is for therapy, at least for me. I have FINALLY gotten this off my chest, and I can stop obsessing about it. I have learned my lesson, and now I can move on. ^_^

35 and a Goal

2010-11-19T11:34:00.000-06:00

Well kids, today is my birthday! My 35th birthday, no less.

I went and saw the Harry Potter movie at midnight, and wow, I must be getting old, because the teenagers were so annoying! *LOL* But then, I told Brian later, that even though I'm 35, and probably a good 20 years (give or take) older than many of those kids in the theater, I don't "feel" that much older than them. Oh, more wise, for sure. More mannered, definitely. But, not necessarily so OLD when compared to them. Does that make sense?

Well, anyway, so far the day has gone well, and it just started, so I'm very excited. And ... I have decided (been thinking of this for a few days now), that today I would put a dream into action and move towards a goal.

As many of you know, I dream of one day throwing my own Masquerade Ball. I have talked about for YEARS. At times I get more excited about it, then start doing lots of research and then realize that *sigh* I have no way to accomplish this right now. And so, I let it slide for awhile. I've had this dream for, oh, I would say a good 10 years (if not a few more), and I do talk about it with people from time to time.

So I decided that no longer will I just TALK about it. I am now going to start moving towards making my dream a reality.

Today, I opened a new, separate savings to save for my Masquerade Ball. Money has been my biggest roadblock, but no longer. I just added a little bit of money to start off with, and every month I will put something in. For now, it will be a very small amount, since Brian's the only one that has a steady income coming in, but that's okay. Because I'm giving myself a timetable to accomplish this goal.

5 years. In 5 years, I WILL throw my very own Masquerade Ball, with whatever money I have put away for this goal. Whether it's $500, $5,000 or $50,000 (yeah, I wish!), I will take that and do what I've dreamed of for so many years.

Of course, there will be other things I'm saving for, like a new camera and a house, but like I said, no matter what I have to work with, I will do it.

Because what's the point of dreaming if you don't try to make them reality. I can't wait around for a Fairy Godmother to grant me all my heart's desires. I am my OWN Fairy Godmother. I just need a little more time. ^_^

And THAT is my birthday gift to myself.

The Leonids Missed the Mark

2010-11-18T18:52:00.000-06:00

Almost every year since I knew about them, the Leonids have arrived, or been around for the morning of my birthday. I remember sitting out on a front lawn, very early one morning (think 2-3 am) watching the meteor shower greet the day of my birth.

While obviously not just for me, I like to think of them as God's little gift to me, to let me know, "hey, happy birthday!" It's cool. ^_^

Buuuut, this year, oh, no, they HAD to go and come early! Silly Leonids! Now, granted, it's been kinda rainy and overcast now and then over the last few days, so the chances of actually seeing them were slim, but they actually were set to appear early yesterday morning and this morning. *sniffs* Sad!!!

So, I will have not Leonids to greet me tomorrow morning, but that's okay. I'll have next year. I hope.

Thank You Notes are Not Outdated

2010-11-17T16:22:00.001-06:00

I have been meaning to write about "Thank You" notes, or lacks thereof, for awhile, and then I saw this Dear Abby in today's paper:

KIDS WHO SEND THANK-YOUS STAY ON SANTA'S "NICE" LIST

    DEAR ABBY: At Christmas, "Santa" always fills my children's stockings with a mix of fun, edible and practical items. A few years ago, when my oldest child was beginning to write, my husband and I started the tradition of tucking packets of thank-you cards into their stockings.
    We explained that Santa must have given them the cards so they would have stationery to write thank-you notes to family and friends for the gifts they had received. The cards are a wonderful reminder to my children that they need to express their gratitude to those who have spent time and money to buy and send them a gift. Usually there are cards left over to cover thank-you notes at birthday time as well.
    Unfortunately, these days, not enough people -- even adults -- take the time to write a note of appreciation for presents they are given. I believe parents should encourage children to do this as soon as they are able to understand the concept. I hope my husband and I are instilling a lifelong habit in our children. Abby, can you help get the point across? -- THANKFUL MOM IN BRUNSWICK, MAINE

    DEAR THANKFUL MOM: Gladly. You are teaching your children an important lesson. It's a formality that started being ignored decades ago. Then, as years passed, it was a custom that was not just ignored, but many people forgot it existed. The result was that parents who hadn't been taught the social niceties did not teach them to their children.
    When I publish letters about thank-you notes, I invariably receive an avalanche of letters and e-mails from readers complaining that they are hurt and offended because they don't receive thank-you notes. Some individuals use texts and e-mails to acknowledge gifts. However, for most people a handwritten note is much more memorable. Thanking someone for a gift, an invitation to a party or a kind deed in writing is important.
While composing a letter may always be a chore to some people, there are occasions when the written message is the only proper means of communication. It shows effort, and can become a keepsake. For those people who have difficulty expressing their thoughts, my booklet "How to Write Letters for All Occasions" covers a few basic rules for acknowledging gifts, expressing sympathy and accepting or declining an invitation. It can be ordered by sending your name and mailing address, plus check or money order for $6 (U.S. funds), to Dear Abby -- Letters Booklet, P.O. Box 447, Mount Morris, IL 61054-0447. Shipping and handling are included in the price. Not everyone can write letters that are literary masterpieces, but for anyone who wonders how to put in writing a brief, charming thank-you note, a letter expressing congratulations, a love letter -- or one that announces a broken engagement -- my booklet will serve as a guide to those who have put off writing because they didn't know what to say, how to say it, or even how to begin.
    Because the season for exchanging gifts is nearly here, "Thankful Mom," your letter is an important and timely one.

Now, I will be the first to admit, that I don't know everything about proper etiquette, but I do know the basics when it comes to "thank you" notes. Basically, whenever you receive a gift, you send a thank you note. Yes, even if you and the giver are in the same room and you express a thank you right then and there. More than likely, it's at some sort of party, and you're not the only one being thanked for their gift. There are other times when you might not be sure, for example if someone does something nice for you, out of their way, and a large gesture. When in doubt, always send one. But, I do have to say, that I have actually gone to several baby showers over the last year (give or take a few months), where I have given a gift (and sometimes even handmade) and besides the verbal "thank you," not received an actual thank you card. I can accept perhaps loss in the mail, but ... two? Seems to me that's not something that would be in question, right?

And yes, I've probably let one or two slide by. I think the worst is for Christmas gifts from my family. Brian's family I'm pretty good about sending ones, but mine ... I guess because I'm so used to them. I will try to be better! ^_^

Although, I do remember once that a friend sent me a thank you card, thanking me for a gift, but I was sending one to her about something else, and both my husband and hers wondered if I was thanking her for the thank you card. *LOL* It was pretty funny!!

So anyway, I liked this Dear Abby and what it had to say. And if I ever have children, I will teach them to do this. Oh, after Brian and I were married, I made him start sending out thank you notes. (I think part of the reason I like them is not only because it's a heartfelt sentiment, but also because I love stationery. ^_^) It's never too late to start!

A New Quote to Add to My Favorites

2010-11-16T10:26:00.001-06:00

So I know I just posted one of my favorite quotes a few days ago, but just today I came across this one, and 1) I'm surprised how much I think it describes how I feel, and 2) I can't believe I didn't come across it earlier, because it's by van Gogh, who is my favorite painter.

"I am always doing what I cannot do yet, in order to learn how to do it."
- Vincent van Gogh

I am a self-proclaimed Jill-of-All-Trades and Mistress of None. I like to dabble in many creative things, even those that I may not talk about often (like my singing, for example, that if I ever truly wanted to pursue, I'd need a voice coach to improve my breathing and my range). I like to craft and sew and do all these things to learn how. So that I can feel like I am furthering myself and learning new things. But, I think it's part of my downfall, as well. Because, I can't seem to focus on ONE thing to excel at, to do so I can become great at it.

I sometimes wonder if I'm just undisciplined to try ONE thing, or if I fear trying that ONE thing (to be great) and failing. I know there are many out there that are better at things than I am. (But that's perhaps a whole other story....)

So ... anyway. A new favorite quote!

Five Things to Do Before I Die

2010-11-15T21:51:00.001-06:00

Once again, the day draws to a close and I have not blogged. Trust me, I have many things I WANT to talk about, but the time ... oh, the time!

So, instead I perused the prompts again and found this one: What five things do you want to do before you die? At first I thought it would be hard and take me awhile, but then I realized, it's not asking for the top 5 things, or even why, just to name 5 things, and in no particular order.

So, here goes.

As of right now, before I die, I would like to:
1. Visit Europe.
2. Go to the Atlantis resort in the Bahamas.
3. Have a masquerade ball.
4. Climb Mt. Fuji.
5. Be published in a scrapbook/card magazine with one of my designs.

Many of those have to do with traveling! ^_^ Of course, ask me tomorrow/next week/month/year and some of these might change!

So, what about you? What would you like to do before you die?

Book Review: The Way of Kings

2010-11-14T17:13:00.000-06:00

I know I haven't done a book review in ages, even though I've almost completed my 50-books-for-the-year goal, so I've read plenty! I promise I will do a full disclosure of the books read in the year and what my faves ones were when I get there, but I did want to review (somewhat) The Way of Kings.

When Robert Jordan died, Sanderson was hand-picked to finish The Wheel of Time series. Since learning that, I have since read almost everything, save his short stories, that Sanderson has in print. (I read the first Alcatraz book, but did not like it, and therefore would not read the rest of the series.) And, I really came to love and enjoy Sanderson's style.

I came to respect him even more after he put out the first of the last three books in The Wheel of Time series. It was probably ONE of the best books in that series (of 15 books). That, to me, was a lot. It was also saying a lot that in that book, he wrote one of THE best battle scenes I have ever read. And that's saying a lot, because I don't read battle scenes. I skim them, at the best, and move on. They bore me, frankly. But this one, from the get-go, had me entranced. It was so awesome!!

So, needless to say I was expecting a LOT out of Sanderson's first foray into his epic Fantasy saga. I heard a lot of hype from other authors and the like who received advanced copies to read and review. And then ... I began on the heavy, thousand-page tome.

And, as much as I wanted to love it, I personally will have to give it an average rating, on MY scale. I'll be honest, a book like this, of this genre, with as much as I was anticipating it, I should have breezed through it within the week, perhaps two (as I did have to take some time to work on my Halloween costume). But it took me several weeks. Mostly because I would force myself to read a chapter a night, and then put it away.

I had a hard time getting into it, and normally would have put it down after a few hundred pages, but I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. And finally, finally, around the halfway mark, I actually started getting interested. I actually finished the last half in a week.

Don't get me wrong, overall I liked it, once I made it through the first half. There just seemed to me, to be a LOT of world building and a LOT of character development, without going anywhere. And that's probably because this is not your typical "reluctant hero saves world with entourage" sort of story. Frankly, not until the end do you start to see a glimpse of a real plot. Most of the book is spent in a lot of storytelling, with a lot of battles (which, maybe, right then, should tell you something *LOL*).

A lot of people have loved this book, and I think that, maybe once it's all said and done, this will be one of the epic fantasy series that make it along with the greats, like The Lord of the Rings and The Wheel of time. We'll see. For me, though, I think I will wait until the entire series is out before picking it up to read the rest. If I'm going to make the investment on this specific one, then I want to have the story ready to finish.

But, I still love Sanderson and know he has lots more to give us in the future. And that, is that! ^_^

10-Year Throwback

2010-11-13T21:06:00.000-06:00

I have had a pretty busy day today, and couldn't decide what I could write about that was fairly quick and easy. So, I was looking around the NaBloPoMo prompt tab and saw one suggesting I write about where I was and what I was doing 10 years ago. I knew I could do one better! Even though I've only had nonchalantgirl for a little while, I HAVE been blogging for 10 years. The proof: I have a blog post from 10 years ago to share. Well, it's actually from November 16, 2000 but ... here's the throwback! Enjoy!

Thursday, November 16, 2000

8:51 PM CT: Why, YES, this IS an UPDATE!!

Yes, yes, I know it's been awhile... but, well, you see... I must confess... I've been busy with other things. As you may recall, last week Robert Jordan's new book came out, and well, it engrossed me. Which, btw, is a good thing, right? So much happened and I must say, I did enjoy this book -- very much so. But, for those of you that are reading it, I won't say anything else. ^_^ Let you find out on your own.

And then, I've been trying to finish up watching the anime that Kris sent me. I LOVE CCS, btw, and I am totally in love with Yukito-san *big huge dreamy sighs* *ggls*. Yeah, yeah, I know! I know! ^_- I want to get it all done before the holidays come upon me (ack! is that next week??) because then I won't have much time.

And so I'm behind. Behind in moving my blog. Behind in putting up my blog layout which Mirs made for me, which is too kawaii! Behind in working on my Nyan-Nyan shrine (it's hard when there isn't much around the 'net to scour up!). Behind in getting a new layout up for Nonchalant.nu. AND, to make matters worse, my CD drive is not working. I'm going to have to send that to be fixed soon, which means: no computer for awhile. *sighs*

And then, could I just say... I'm a HORRIBLE friend!!!! To Christine!!! *hangs head in shame* I didn't forget her birthday, really I didn't. It was in October... and I knew when it was... really! But... I let it go, because I swore to myself that I would send her a card, or something, at some time. But it slid by. And then I promised myself it would be something late. And then... here it is, a month later... and to make it worse I had two cards from her sitting in my P.O. Box yesterday. One as a Halloween card, and the other was a birthday card! *sighs* I am SO sorry, Christine! I'll write you soon, I promise! I love you!!!!

Birthday. Yes. It's my birthday soon. On Sunday. I'm going to be 25. It feels so surreal. Really. I'm going to be out of the targeted demographic of 18-24. I'm young at heart, though, and most people think I'm younger than I look, which, I guess, is a good thing. I probably have more to say, but, well, not right now.

So, here I am. Back, hopefully, on a regular basis. Thanks for the poke, Mirs. ^_^

So, I better get back to work, now. Not that there's much work, but well, gotta look productive.

Wow, I can't believe I was bemoaning turning 25. *LOL*